Should I drop out? How do I tell my parents?
June 5, 2010 1:09 AM Subscribe
Feeling very lost and confused about my life. Should I drop out of college? How do I tell my parents?
posted by herebedragons to human relations (36 answers total) 10 users marked this as a favorite
I'm feeling very aimless these days. I don't have a job; I failed all of my classes this semester; I'm a liberal arts major and I don't see any future, I'm a loner by nature, so it's not like I have a social life to fall back on... I'm lost. I keep thinking how utterly ridiculous I'm being and so terribly selfish, because everyone's questioning, looking for answers-- but I just.. the other day I was taking a walk around my neighborhood and there was this car driving past, and all I could think about was just how easy it would be to step off from the sidewalk.
My younger sister is about to graduate from 8th grade-- she's valedictorian of her class and everything else I never was at that age or would be-- and I just know the whole world is opening up for her. I'm happy for her, I'm so happy. Yet, I feel like she's coming up to a point in her life that I just can't possibly fathom or reach, and it makes me sad all over the place. Like all my faults magnified and so close.
I'm just feeling down. I had all these plans and hopes for myself but it's all come apart and I don't know where to even begin picking up the pieces. I don't know what to do.
I want to quit school. My major is going nowhere. I don't know what else I want to major in. I don't get financial aid and I feel wrong making my parents pay for this uni tuition. I need to reevaluate my life, who I am, everything. I don't really know how to tell my parents. I've been telling them everything is fine, I'm fine.. etc.etc. They don't know a thing and I feel so bad about how screwy I am and how I've lied about how not fine everything is. I just don't know.