How to get over the fact that I just had a breakdown?
March 1, 2013 6:13 PM Subscribe
Two days ago I had some sort of emotional/mental breakdown. I got help in the immediate sense, but I'm not sure how to process and get over it.
posted by trogdole to health & fitness (26 answers total) 10 users marked this as a favorite
Trying to avoid being too graphic, but still give some clarity. Two days ago I skipped work, sat in my bath tub and merrily cut the shit out of myself many many times. After a while I kind of 'woke up', freaked out and ran into my living room and collapsed crying on the floor.
I got help, I called people, went to the ER, spoke to a shrink. That's fine. I'm as good as I can be at this point. But what I'm having trouble with is getting my head around the fact that I did that. That my mental state went so off the wall that I hurt myself that much and was so happy about it at the time. I know I need a therapist, but I can't afford the time or money right now. I'm looking for advice, maybe anecdotes, books or websites. And hell, even a name for what happened, if there is some kind of term for it?
Mods, please feel free to take this down or edit it if it's too..unpleasant.