I don't want to be sad anymore.
January 6, 2012 1:01 AM Subscribe
How can I battle depression and insomnia (I think they're related, actually) without meds or doctors?
I'm beyond depressed right now. Today it was hard for me to not step in front of a bus that was going down the street. I feel... Hollow. I don't know how else to describe it. I've slept a total of 12 hours in the last three or four days. I'm used to a day or two a week of not being able to sleep, and I'm used to being mildly depressed. Hell, I'm even used to occasional thoughts of suicide. Right now I'm at the end of my rope. I don't know what to do.
Some significantly shitty things have happened in the last week or so, but I'd really rather not get into much detail. I'm fine putting myself out there, but other people are involved and I don't want to out them out there, dig it?
The thing is, I'm scared of doctors, hate taking medicine, and have had a terrible experience with a shrink in my past. How can I deal with this?
Oh yeah, I'm 26, married (on the rocks, but that's an issue for an entirely different thread...), working full-time, have a pretty ok social life, and am physically active.