Is it worth it to live in a city with too many bad memories?
December 26, 2012 2:56 AM Subscribe
Is it worth it to live in a city with too many bad memories? I love Los Angeles, but I feel that pieces of my heart are scattered all over it.
posted by Cybria to Human Relations (15 answers total) 7 users marked this as a favorite
I am just really torn about this. Im' 27 and I live about an hour outside of Los Angeles with my mother. I moved in with her after I left my husband two years ago. A few months later I started dating this guy who was pursuing me. I fell head over heels for the guy. He lived in Los Angeles, and during our time together he showed me so much of the city. We made awesome memories. Eventually he broke my heart, and I wasn't able to return to the city for awhile.
Then I met someone else, a female friend who lived in about the same area. Eventually I fell in love with her, much to my surprise, because I'd never been in love with another woman before. But it was so effortless. Our love relationship lasted for a complicated, intense eight months. During those eight months I had made plans to move out of my mother's place and move to Los Angeles, since I'd found a new love for the place. But after things ended with my girlfriend (a couple days ago), I can't imagine wanting to set foot there again.
My emotions are perhaps compounded by the fact that it's the end of the year and I'm doing a lot of reflection. But I do love L.A...I love the general spirit of bustling, busy chaos and the spirit of innovation and creativity that I see every time I visit. I was also born here, so I feel that attachment. It's a place that is very close to my heart...but now I find myself relating to John Mayer's song "In Your Atmosphere."
I'm gonna steer clear
Burn up in your atmosphere
I'm gonna steer clear
Cause I'd die if I saw you
I'd die if I didn't see you there
So I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I've thought about moving to Miami or maybe Oregon...I definitely don't want to stay where I'm living now because this city doesn't have much to offer. I really love L.A and I would miss so much it if I moved out of state, but is it worth it to live in a place when you have strong negative emotions tied to it?