Hearing voices. Need help.
August 13, 2014 10:26 AM Subscribe
This is hard to write, but I'll try to get things out...
I've been hearing voices and I don't know what to do.
Be prepared for a book...
posted by kathrynm to Health & Fitness (42 answers total) 8 users marked this as a favorite
I was abused as a child. Pretty severely if you listen to my therapists. I started seeing a new psychiatrist a few months ago. I started seeing a psychologist a few weeks ago. IOW, everything is covered on that front.
About a month ago, I told pdoc I had been starting to hear my mother's voice (she's been dead almost 5 years). Many of the things I heard were things she might have said. Until recently, that is. The voice has been getting nastier and more intense. The most disturbing thing is it telling me I should kill myself and that nobody would care (I'm not actively suicidal). In addition, I've been hearing random other voices with similar messages.
I told this to pdoc last Friday. She had been slightly concerned before that but now is more concerned. She prescribed 1 mg Haldol (I do not like the side effect profile from the atypicals, which I took in the past for severe PTSD symptoms, but not voices) at night. She said it probably wasn't going to be enough to make a difference but wanted to take it slow because of my anxiety around the medication and the symptoms. I was only able to start it on Monday night because the pharmacy didn't have it in stock.
I'm not sure what to do anymore. I'm really scared. I don't have anyone to talk to who has been in a similar situation. I'm afraid to disclose to people for fear of what they'd think. Yes, I know there shouldn't be stigma surrounding mental illness, but sadly there is. If anyone has any words of wisdom or coping strategies, I'm all ears. This is really distressing and really is interfering with my life.
I set up a throw away email at firstname.lastname@example.org. I was going to post this anonymously, but the hell with it. I'll do my part to battle stigma.