There's no escape
July 28, 2014 12:46 PM Subscribe
Adrift, lonely and feeling hopeless. Advice would be appreciated.
posted by morning_television to Human Relations (14 answers total) 18 users marked this as a favorite
I've been wanting to improve the quality of my life, but I'm completely lost. I've lost the passion for creativity recently and I feel I've got nowhere to go. I've focused most of my life on art so I never got around to going to college and getting a degree. I've been going from unrelated depressing job to unrelated depressing job for years. I want to move out of my parents and leave this town. I want to establish some sort of life of my own in another city and form meaningful friendships. Yet I'm afraid of the idea of being even more lonely in a new city and not knowing anyone.
I've been going to therapy and I'm currently on a low dosage of anti-depressants. But I still feel really anxious and lost over what to do with my life. I try to reach out to good friends but almost all of them aren't near me anymore. I haven't made a new friend in years. I'm starting to feel flawed, unliked and "broken". Feeling I don't deserve friends or love. People unable to appreciate me or like who I am. Unable to truly connect with anyone.
I don't know what to look for career-wise. I'm considering going back to school to learn a trade but I'm not fully committed to the idea yet and I have no idea what to pursue. I still am paying off old debts and don't really have enough to go back to school full time.
I've been making decent progress with myself but the loneliness is really getting to me. It's getting to the point where I'd rather escape than fix my overwhelming situation. With music, movies, alcohol.. anything. I daydream of picking up and running away on a daily basis. Abandoning my family, friends and job. I feel like I'm doomed to live out this life just to get by. I need people who understand me and who genuinely care. If it weren't for my family, I don't know where I'd be. I'm scared that I'm never going to escape these feelings or find a life of my own.
What do people do when they're in this situation?