What can make this situation better? Details inside.
June 23, 2011 7:17 AM Subscribe
What can make this situation better?
posted by anonymous to human relations (6 answers total) 3 users marked this as a favorite
It seems I'm in a rut and have been for the past year or so.
After graduating college, I moved to the city for an internship, the internship was great - finished my degree and still living in the area. I've gotten a part-time job, but just doesn't seem to be anything I'm heart set on. I was always questioning my major throughout college and just feel like giving up on trying to find what that job is in my field. Job hunting has come to a standstill since I don't know where to look or find I'm not qualified for any positions. Basically I feel that my major was too broad and which it was something more specific such as a teacher, engineer, etc. (I majored in Leisure studies)
Ideally I'd love to work more with people. I enjoy outdoor activities such as hiking, cycling, (used to be a runner), etc. I have been thinking more and more about going back to school for physical therapy. I think the daunting factor is going back to school, taking pre-reqs in science and math which I am not very strong in and then continuing on for a Doctors in PT. Part of me is also thinking that because I live in an affluent area I am comparing myself too much to the people around me and not looking at myself and what makes me happy. I would love to work at a camp with kids, maybe even a camp where kids need recreational activities to help them overcome obstacles in their lives - drug use, depression, etc - but don't know how this could be a career path - I can't be a camp counselor for my life.
I also have a sister with a disability which I feel in the later years of my life she will become my responsibility and I would have to support her in someway financially. I want to make enough of a living to support both her and myself even if I don't even end up marrying or having a SO.
Lately, I've just been feeling worthless, unproductive, like I haven't achieved anything. It's difficult to see many of my friends moving on with their lives either career wise, with a SO, traveling..while here I am still single, feeling lost, confused, not happy, almost miserable going through some type of post-college blues.
I've been thinking of traveling to teach english abroad, but for some reason nothing seems to be working out. My plan was to be doing something different by September and the clock is still ticking and I'm still going no where. Maybe I have too high expectations for what I want to do? I would love to go to china, but can't seem to find a program that I can just be a teachers assistant which helps me to avoid having previous experience or TESOL.
What is wrong with me? Am I showing signs of depression? I think it's just a funk until I make my next move, but it's really pulling me down an getting to be overwhelming. I feel like I just can never figure things out or just sit down to actually research any of these things that I want to do. I've become incredibly lazy, all I do is work and when I come back from work I'm too exhausted to even look for jobs that I don't even know what type of job to look for because I'm so unsure on what I'm interested in. Another detail is that I haven't been eating very well- lots of carbs and sugar and usually I can kick this habit but lately it has been difficult.
I've tried therapy, but felt like I wasn't really connecting with any of my therapists. One I ended on bad terms by ignoring her and not returning phone calls. The other just never got back to me thus concluded my search for reaching out to therapists.
I guess I'm reaching out to MeFi's to gain some perspective on the situation.