Help me keep my focus for at least the next 8 days
May 24, 2012 12:53 AM Subscribe
So much is going wrong, I'm having a hell of a time coping. Huge deadline looming and I need help coping/repressing all this stress for at least a week.
posted by Beacon Inbound to Human Relations (12 answers total) 6 users marked this as a favorite
So, this last year has been one hell of an emotional roller coaster for me and I think tonight I received the proverbial straw that broke the camels back. In the last ten months I've: had to euthanize my two horses; found out my dad has cancer (operated on and in remission); found out my dog has cancer (untreatable, he's at the end of his days and hanging on by a thread); interviewed for and received an offer for my dream job once my degree is finished this summer; spent way more time fighting with my wife than is healthy; and have bitten off an overly ambitious course load for the summer to finish my degree by September instead of April. Tonight, I found out that my mother is going in for triple bypass heart surgery sometime in the next week or two... I wouldn't consider her a good candidate for surgery as she's not very fit (but not really obese either) and has a lot of peripheral issues. She seems young for this at 65 but what do I know...
Anyways, I managed to bury myself in work for most of today to avoid dealing with this latest bit of news, but now I'm sitting here unable to sleep and starting to just freak out a little. I have an important final next wednesday and an obscene amount of work to get through before that... it's an incredibly challenging course so taking any real time for myself is going to be incredibly difficult if not impossible. Up till now I've managed to just put off dealing with a lot of this stuff by being busy, I've felt a little down and out for the last couple of months but now it's just become overwhelming.
I'd really appreciate any tips and hints to help me push this growing panic back down and maintain my focus. I can already hear the shouts of "THERAPY" but I don't think I can afford it. The school offers therapists for free when schools in, but nothing through the summer. I need free and (relatively) easy strategies to help me push this onto a backburner until next thursday at a minimum, but preferably something to help me get through the summer until I have income flowing again in the fall. I know that it's probably wishful thinking, nothing can be free and easy but that's all I can afford in both time and money.
I think the saving grace of the sheer amount of work I have to do is that I'm terrified to do something really destructive like drink myself into oblivion because I don't think I can afford the time to be hungover.