I miss my ex-girlfriend when we break up, but I want to be single when we're together?
We dated for 2 years, but at present we've been broken up for the past two or three weeks now. But really we have been on and off for the past 6 months.
I feel whenever we are together, that the relationship isn't going to work because we are too different. Or because I've never dated anyone else before, or even kissed anyone else really, so I can't help but think about other people.
I mean there are other reasons that bother me about our relationship, but nothing we couldn't really work through if we tried. Our relationship is pretty strong overall, it's just my nagging doubts about being in a relationship I'm not overly optimistic about. And also the fact that I'm still young, I don't want to be missing out on any experiences in my life because of a relationship.
But for the past 6 months, I've basically let these doubts nag at the back of my mind until I finally hastily break up with her, with no real warning. Until a week later when we inevitably get back together and talk it over. And then process repeats. It's cruel I know. But I only realized this was the problem until recently
The reason I'm asking, to be honest, is because whenever this happens she quickly finds an outlet in someone else if I'm not there for her. The last time she made out with a guy, which she apologized for after, and she defended herself saying she needed to find a way to get over me. She called me right after this had happened crying. Now I'm just afraid she's talking to her ex again, and going to clubs. I want her back now. But I don't want to hurt her over and over again like before.
I hope this made sense, and I'm sorry for wording this weirdish. I'm really tired but I can't sleep tonight. Does anyone have experience with on and off relationships? Does anyone have advice for myself in my situation?
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