Flunking a course, now going crazy.
April 5, 2011 11:25 AM Subscribe
I failed a class for the first time in my life, and I have no idea what to do.
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I am a first generation college student who is a sophomore as far as credits go. I major in mechanical engineering. I have always been a perfectionist, and if I cannot master the material exceptionally, I freeze up. School has always been an important aspect of my life and I love to study. My two and a half years of experience has been a rollercoaster. Some semesters, I end up with a 4.0 (mainly in literature and art classes) and a 2.5 in others (mainly in technical or introduction classes). I would call myself an average (3.4ish) student, but a pretty good self-promoter. I have managed to gain leadership skills, participate in competitions, and network with alumni well. In class, however, I feel like a failure, the dumbest out of the smartest. I have yet to get a grade above a course's average. And my self-esteem has been shot down by a lack of a social life (well, that's getting a little better) and problems with my emotionally abusive mother. I've attended counseling and I am scheduled to get tested for any disabilities (i.e. anxiety). I feel that my counselor and dean overlook my problems because of my performance beyond academics.
And then...I received my official transcript yesterday from an introductory math class and there was a big fat E. I now have a 2.8 GPA. I studied, but half of the time in class, I felt as if I was floating, lost in space. I looked at my series of 3 W's and the fact that I won't be able to attend graduate school. I have already scheduled an appointment with my former professor to discuss my options, such as taking the course over. But what if this pattern continues? I desperately want to change my major, but I'm afraid that I may underperform no matter what. Maybe I should just quite altogether.