A Kick in the Head
September 1, 2007 7:49 PM
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Can I improve my brain with drugs?
Back in the 90s I remember reading about wonder drugs that could improve memory, intelligence, the ability to learn... The internet was full of stories like that.
I'm a fairly intelligent person but my brain rarely feels like it's working at its optimum. At the moment, it's in crap mode -- and it's pissing me off.
I'm getting the sleep I need, I'm eating good, stress is low, sex is often, exercise is regular, alchohol intake is moderate, no drugs, I gave up smoking years ago but the mind is as dull as a cobbler's thumb. I'm finding it hard to work, study, and I feel altogether useless. Music fails to please me, reading is uninteresting, and my imagination has gone to the dogs.
Sometimes I'm razor sharp: I can think on my feet, I'm attentive, I can crunch numbers and solve problems in the blink of an eye, I'm able to immerse myself in music and literature, I can sit at the piano and compose music I'd never thought myself capable of playing; sometimes I can almost feel my head buzzing. (Side note: Times like these, I also feel a kind of huggy warmth in my solar-plexus.)
But these periods are short lived and all too infrequent.
Most of the time, it's a different story. I find it hard to engage my head with anything; my attention fleets from one thing to the next, my wit becomes sluggish, learning becomes difficult, I never feel satisfied, I get confused by the simplest of things. It feels like I'm not entirely awake. My internal thoughts become vague, words are a chore to read. I become gormless and totally useless; incapable of thinking straight and incapable of even the faintest of creative thoughts.
I feel as though I'm losing out. I've always been like this. I know my head's got potential -- I want to tap it before it's too late. I haven't been on full burn since last Christmas! But it's not like I'm apathetic about things.
Today is typical. I'm trying to learn RealBasic. I'm interested in it. I've been following the tutorials. I'm really keen about becoming proficient in it. But, nothing seems to be seating in my brain properly. I don't feel immersed. It's as though my brain is not interested in anything. It's not like the usual rigaramole of learning -- having to work at understanding the simplest of concepts, making mistakes, forgetting... -- my head feels empty and I don't feel 'thinky' at all. Thinking hurts. It's almost like hangover head; but I haven't had a drink in a week!
So, the wonder drugs. Do such things exist? I could be so much more; if only my brain was willing. Are there really pills that will keep the light in my head on? Or is it all sci-fi? Most importantly, where can I get them and, are they legal?
(FYI I eat fish and I take my vitamins -- I also eat plenty of fresh vegetables and fruit)
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