There has to be more than this
June 9, 2014 6:31 PM Subscribe
I periodically get overcome by a feeling of what I can only describe as existential angst. Almost as if I can see life stretching in front of me and it's just more of the same: the daily grind of work, housework, weekends that are never long enough. Never feeling like I've achieved enough or done all the things I should, but also feeling like there's never enough time for it all. And what's the point anyway? Not in a "life is so meaningless I wish I was dead" kind of way, but just this nagging feeling that there's supposed to be something more than this.
Yes, I am depressed. I take medication and see a psychologist and generally maintain a more-or-less even keel. I am an introvert and my job involves a lot of working with people, which taps out my energy, so volunteering in a way that involves more working with people isn't likely to help. And yet solitary activities that please only myself seem so pointless, and despite my introversion I'm a reasonably sociable person so finding a cave and being a hermit isn't a good idea either.
What am I missing? No kids but don't want them. No partner and I think I might like one, but it's unlikely to happen. Besides, I've had this feeling whether partnered or not so I don't think another person is going to fill this hole. Not particularly religious, though Buddhism is moderately appealing. I don't think it's a lasting source of consolation or meaning for me.
I guess this is one of the ultimate questions that humanity has always struggled to answer and I don't really expect MeFites to have The Answer (which is 42, anyway). But do you have any suggestions for life hacks to get through times of existential angst, or new ways of looking at the routines and patterns of life to imbue them with more meaning?