People that picked themselves up after long-term depression?
May 30, 2014 12:08 AM Subscribe
Just need to hear some stories of people that managed to turn things around after a long-term depression. Explanation below.
posted by ahtlast93 to Health & Fitness (18 answers total) 31 users marked this as a favorite
I was diagnosed with ADHD about a year ago, but started treatment only recently. I was put on Wellbutrin and I feel it's been working (I mean, I cried the other day which I didn't do in years). However, along with it, it helped me realise how self-destructively I lived until now, making choices impulsively and that would intentionally hurt me. I knew I was depressed for a long time (in retrospect, it might have started already when I was 5, a time I remember having really aggressive suicide dreams) but after trying to address it a few times I gave up.
My grades suffered, I isolated and kept masking it throughout all my schooling. I studied something I wasn't really at all interested in and was just as unhappy throughout my college years. Out of college, there were less distractions, the depression got worse and I finally sought help. Now I feel simultaneously great and horrible, because it's so strange to realise that I didn't really live until now.
Thing is, I know I'm a smart guy and that I learn quickly and well when I apply myself, which is why I can't get rid of the feeling how different it could have been, and how crazy I was to put myself in this situation.
I'll be 24 this Summer and want to study medicine now. In Europe, that's an age when most people finish this study, and here it's even less common to go back to school. A part of me is also kind of afraid that maybe such a radical change isn't possible, that it'll fail. It's strange, but it feels like I'm afraid to be happy.
In any case, I only wanted to hear some stories of people picking themselves up and turning their lives around after living like this for a long time.