I'm on warm milk and laxatives. Cherry-flavored antacids.
March 11, 2014 5:50 AM Subscribe
I've had health issues my entire life. I'm approaching my mid twenties and it's time to accept the fact that I'll likely never be 100% healthy. How do I do this?
posted by Autumn to Health & Fitness (21 answers total) 6 users marked this as a favorite
Note: It will be awhile before I can see my therapist; I'm catching up on my payments.
I have exhaustion/insomnia/nausea issues that make it difficult to live a "normal" day to day life. I tend to descend into a state of exhaustion/weakness that gradually decreases my functioning until I do almost nothing except sleep.
Nausea/stomach pain is a daily thing for me; I'm pain free so infrequently that when it's not hurting I get anxious about when it's going to start again.
I've been to numerous doctors who can't figure out the nausea thing - antacids and other forms of self-medication are my best friends. The exhaustion situation appears more hopeful, and I'm working on consistency with addressing that.
I want to get my shit together in 2014. I can't cope with the fact that this probably means accepting that I'll never have a "normal" life, and may not be able to have a "normal" job either, depending on how this attempt at managing it works. I honestly cried while typing this; I don't want being a sickly person to be my reality.
When I wake up in the morning and need to take 8 vitamins, which hurt my stomach (or take them with food, which will also hurt my stomach) for a chance at having energy, and am able to bond with my 70 year old Step Dad and 81 year old Grandmother over which antacids are best, I feel like an elderly person instead of a 23 year old woman. Then at night I become a zombie who's too tired to function but can't sleep.
Let's not mention the process of figuring out which meds work, which doses, and what side effects are caused by what meds and is my mood swing today because of this med or this med's interaction with this other med or withdrawing from that med or do I genuinely have a reason to feel this way or...
Well, you have the picture.
I want to accept that this is my reality, and be able to love my body, myself and my life anyway.