bootstraps for hobbyists
February 20, 2014 9:08 AM Subscribe
My life is calm. I live in one place. My house is clean and decluttered. I have free time. And now I am bored...
I am a 29 year old female and I live in NE Phila. Since I was 22 life was running my balls off between working several jobs at once always crazy hours, unpredictable schedules, living between my own place and various couches to get to work, living between places for 2 relationships, breakups, a stint in the hospital for some virus thath knocked me out, and more work, getting rid of a complete excess of stuff from my possession (things i'd held onto since childhood for sentimental reasons, housefull of stuff) and even more work.
Last week I had a normal 40 hour work week for the first time in retrievable memory. I have one this week too. And I'll have one next week...And when I get home, I'm so bored. I just do not know what to do with myself. I don't really have any friends and I do have things I've always wanted to explore "when I had time" but now that I have the time, I can't seem to get the focus to sit down and explore without the pressure of needing to do it for a paycheck or some other external force complelling me to do it. This applies to things like art, knitting and sewing, and music, which would be my biggest sendentary interests.
I've had more luck doing some physical things like ice skating, working out, and more doggie playtime, but i still feel scatterbrained and like I'm forgetting to do something more important. I just can't get my mind together to have the motivation to do thought intensive hobbies or be in teh present for physical hobbies without some alarm, emails, bosses, coworkers, customers, phone calls etc telling me what to do, when to do it, and how they want it done. How can I learn to chill out during my own time and still have the motivation to pursue these things I haven't had time for in years?
Random possibly relevant details - I already cook for myself and I consider thath just a life skill, so I'm asking more about motivation to do unecessary things. I don't have too much money to through at the problem, $100 max, so in person courses may or may not be available (welcoming specific suggestions). For whatever reason, free online courses don't trigger the same attention and sort of get grouped with "browsing the internet" in my mental toybox of time passers thath aren't really productive or personally satisfying.