I Want My Pills!
March 14, 2013 8:32 AM Subscribe
I've been taking ADD meds for years with the same psychiatrist, but lost my insurance last summer and had to stop taking them. Now I have insurance again and scheduled an appointment with my doctor today, but I'm worried he'll say that I'm doing just fine without the pills. However, I'm also afraid of looking too desperate if I tell him how much I want them! Can I tell him everything without sounding like I'm a junkie? Details follow.
posted by brisquette to health & fitness (14 answers total) 1 user marked this as a favorite
In some ways, the structure I built while taking the pills did serve me well when I tapered off. I've been consistently on time to work (something I had a huge problem with for a while), I've been regularly using a calendar to schedule events/meetings with friends, I haven't left my wallet at home in months...stuff like that. I've even started exercising regularly!
But I work in the design industry, and the only way I got through my holiday rush of projects was by stockpiling some pills. Until I dipped back into my stockpile, it was like my brain adamantly refused to seriously work on stuff, and that was worrisome. I've also had a hard time processing my conversations with people; haven't remembered names very well, forgotten things that people have said to me, that sort of thing.
Luckily my main job doesn't have a lot of in-depth projects, but I've still been really distracted at work (click over to personal email, click over to project, click over to other project, click over to metafilter, check my work email, repeat) and the only thing that's kept me from freaking out is the knowledge that this state of mind is only temporary. Especially because I have some high profile projects coming up, and I don't know how I'll get through them if my brain stays like this.
How much of this should I tell my doctor? And will he consider my pill stockpiling problematic behavior, even though I never took more than my normal dose?