Girl needs therapy
November 2, 2012 9:51 AM Subscribe
Therapy hasn't helped in the past. But I need to do something, FFS. What else should I try?
posted by indognito to health & fitness (13 answers total) 9 users marked this as a favorite
I've struggled my whole life with various issues--shyness, anxiety, inattentive ADD, depression, blah blah blah. It occurred to me the other day that I'm depressed, worried and/or down on myself nearly all the damn time, and it just isn't going to get better on its own. I function, but I'm pretty miserable. And sometimes I do dip into being nonfunctional for a day or two. So I called and made yet another appointment for therapy.
But at the same time I'm wondering if there's any point in doing therapy any more. I've seen over a dozen therapists in my life, starting in college. Therapy methods I've tried include CBT, ACT, psychoanalysis, transactional analysis. Honestly, other than the first therapist I saw at age 18, none of them helped, other than providing a kindly presence for me to complain at. (I saw several of these therapists for 6 months to a year, so it's not as though I was merely therapist-hopping.)
I've also been on a colorful array of drugs, including Paxil, Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Klonopin, Vyvanse (second worst drug ever), Strattera (worst drug ever), and others that I can't recall at the moment. Paxil and Zoloft did considerably chill me out, at the same time that they zombified me. They were also hell to get off of. So I don't know that I want to head back down the psychopharmaceutical trail again so fast.
Or is all of this just the depression talking? Maybe it is better to be zombified and not freaked out all the time.
Is there anything else I could do? I try to eat well, lots of vegetables. I'm vegetarian, but have also been omnivorous with no change in my symptoms, so don't think it's that. I supplement with vitamin D and omega 3s. I drink one cup of coffee a day because I am lost without it. I exercise every day (jogging and weight-lifting). I try to meditate daily but it's hard to find the time. 36 yo female, no other known health problems.