I'm not happy with the way I look or feel. I haven't been for a long time. I'm severely overweight, have high blood pressure with a family history of heart disease and diabetes, wake up with back pain every morning, have zero energy if it doesn't come in the form of an energy drink or shot, and just generally look like hell. What can I do to lose over 80 lbs and get myself to a healthy BMI for a 24yo 5'8' male when my brain acts like it really, really just wants to have me die of a heart attack by 35? Snowstorm inside.
posted by marsbar77 to Health & Fitness (34 answers total) 18 users marked this as a favorite
The weight gain that began early in college (I was never a skinny kid, but sudddenly began to binge to a pathological degree) has had its peaks and troughs, but lately I've been ballooning at an alarming clip. My main problem: A truly cocaine-like addiction to sugar, carbs and variation in texture.
It's actually pretty scary to see what my brain does when I'm deprived of these for more than a few hours at a time. That is, whenever I've tried to lose weight and focused on smaller portions and "real food", I would always start to get incredibly irritable, obsessive, physically hyper to an uncomfortable degree and took on an annoying tunnel vision. That tunnel, needless to say, led straight to food. I could never sit with these feelings. They were so incredibly uncomfortable that putting say, a Dunkin Donuts muffin in my mouth actually felt like a release; like someone had just injected me with a sedative and all was right with the world again. It would be inaccurate for me to say that I use food as anything other than a drug. I need help, or I'm going to die.
Not an excuse, but my circumstances haven't been of much help.
*I'm disabled and live with my parents for the time being.
* I can't yet find work and they're on an incredibly limited budget.
* They're both overweight and mildly depressed and though we were never the type to consider pizza a vegetable or be fine with having Pop Tarts for dinner every morning, my mom does make a lot of the heavier dishes found in Israeli and Eastern European cuisine. and my dad can't help himself when it comes to buying prepared food, salty meats and cheeses or going out to restaurants. These aren't things I'll ever get them to change.
*I've tried asking them for help in preparing healthier meals, but they're always either too busy, too tired or don't believe in the philosophy behind my diet-of-the-week ( I don't blame them at this point).
* I haven't the foggiest idea of what to do at a gym given that I'm in a chair ( the only one I can afford right now is Planet Fitness and they don't seem very willing to work with me)
*My depression and chronic pain don't allow for me to follow through on plans myself either. I can't stand at a kitchen counter for very long and get tired easily. I'm always SO tired and foggy. That's where the evil that is 5-hour energy comes into my life. ( No CFS, far as I know)
I've tried everything. I mean it- everything.
-Portion control ( Nutrisystem and on my own)
-Juicing ( the program based on Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead seemed like it would be my answer and I was crushed when it fell through)
- Supplements ( 5-HTP, L-Tyrosine, L-theanine, GABA, B-vitamins, etc etc)
-Medications ( Prozac, Klonopin, Wellbutrin.... all for depression, but all of these made me gain rather than lose weight)
-Talk therapy and CBT
-Frozen meals from Jenny Craig, Lean Cusine, etc
I don't have Cushing's, Addison's, diabetes, or any other red flag, at least according to blood tests. No sleep apnea ( how, I don't know).
What do I do to take control of my mind and my life?
TL;DR: Help an ADHD, depressed, food-addicted young adult who has very little control over the circumstances in his life and has tried everything lose weight and feel okay again.