Everything fell apart, again. Now what?
October 16, 2012 10:16 AM Subscribe
I'll try to make this not too long-winded, but basically I find myself at square one for like the hundredth time in the past 6 years, and I'm just flat out of resilience. Help me form a plan for getting through the impending long dark winter.
posted by like_a_friend to grab bag (25 answers total) 20 users marked this as a favorite
Long story short, I'm once again completely single, without the tiniest glimmer of hope of being otherwise anytime in the near future. I just quit a permanent (but awful, health-destroying) job for a temporary (but less torturous) one, and it turns out that most of my time will actually just be spent working at home. In my tiny, awful studio apartment.
Part of the reason for taking the temporary job was so that I could move, in the spring, to a cheaper and more livable city--where I was also seeing someone. But now that relationship has imploded spectacularly, and I don't think I can move there anymore. (I wasn't moving FOR him, but the way things ended, I just feel better with the distance.)
Basically, my life looks like that of a 22 year old who is failing to launch...but I'm 30. And I can't ever seem to get a toehold on life, no matter how hard I try. I always end up once again scrambling for work, alone, broke, and needing to start allllllll over again.
But this time I just am not sure I have the strength to do it. The days just get shorter and I find myself unable to eat, sleep, function. The other day I left the office and booked a hotel room in the city just so I wouldn't have to face my empty apartment. But obviously I can't spend every day re-enacting Lost in Translation. So please, help me MeFites! How am I going to keep getting out of bed every day?