I need to get a life
August 9, 2005 8:36 PM Subscribe
I'm 22 and I've done nothing with my life. This is going to be quite long...
posted by anonymous to health & fitness (51 answers total) 13 users marked this as a favorite
I've failed or quit every time I've attempted to do anything (including school and college). I did well enough at both, and certainly wouldn't have been considered a "typical" drop-out, but I just lost interest in everything they had to offer, which sounds incredibily stupid now. I have few skills or qualifications; I've had a couple of jobs and my bosses always had good things to say about my work, but I get bored and lose motivation easily.
I've had a lot of family problems to deal with throughout my teens and I've been depressed and on medication for a long time, but it doesn't help. I don't have any friends that I can talk to about this stuff, because they are all off doing their own thing. I feel jealous and resentful of them because they have already achieved so much and I'm left behind feeling like I'll never catch up. I pretty much avoid the few friends I had because I'm sick of trying to cover up my loser-ness (I hate lying to them, and I don't really have an answer to the usual "so, what've you been doing?" question because I haven't been doing anything except sitting around feeling sorry for myself). It's getting to the point where I'm finding myself ridiculously jealous of anyone younger than me because I'm so mad at myself for ruining my teens and furious that I can see myself ruining my 20s as well.
I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. The thing is, I'm not stupid. I do believe I have the potential to be good at something, and I'm a decent person and I don't want to be this way forever. I just don't know where to start to get myself out of this rut; I'm afraid of life and so I'm not living at all...
So, after this ridiculously long post, I guess I should have a question. I'm asking for advice, experiences, reassurances that I haven't completely messed up my life (I do try to tell myself that I can't possibly have failed at everything in the world at 22, but that's not making me feel much better at the moment). I am sure though that I'm not the only person here who has gone, or is going, through this sort of thing. I know ultimately I have to get myself out of this situation, but a little help on how to do it would be much appreciated.
(Like another anon poster recently, I have set up an email account for anyone who wants to reply anonymously. It's at firstname.lastname@example.org. Thanks in advance to anyone that responds and I hope this is not an inappropriate use of AskMe. If is is, please just have the thread deleted quietly, I don't want the attention of a call-out on MeTa.)