I really dislike my current job. I have a job offer from a company that would love to have me and is willing to accommodate all timing logistics. However, I still feel guilty about quitting my current job, for a myriad of reasons. Give me permission to quit.
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I'm currently working in the accounting industry, conducting financial audits. I've been in this position since September of 2011, following my graduation in May of 2011 from a prestigious business program that cost me a buttload of money, and a supplementary accounting diploma over the summer. I interned for my current company in the summer of 2010, too, so in total I've been with this company for 10 months.
I've always known that business wasn't really the place for me, but I saw it as a compromise between what I really wanted to do (writing, design-y things), and something that would get me a job. I always thought that I would pay my dues in accounting, get my auditing certification, and then use that professional certification as a springboard for networking and find something else I actually enjoy. Everyone I talked to about this plan talked about how wise it was to be cautious, which further cemented my belief that I needed to put off my "dream" for a few more years. I didn't enjoy my business program, either, but I stuck it out in the name of pragmatism, so I thought another three years in accounting wouldn't be that terrible.
Well, it kind of is. I find aspects of my workplace really toxic. Misogyny and sexism runs rampant, everybody associates in cliques, and it's very much an extension of high school. The nature of the work is utterly mindnumbing to me. I find myself frustrated with the lack of autonomy and the lack of meaning in what I do. Understanding the principles behind financial auditing just makes me not believe in auditing as a profession, and I end each day feeling like the client is wasting their money and my time. Being at this job exacerbates my depression in a really unhealthy way, and I dread waking up every day. I'm a conscientious worker and I take a lot of pride in my work, and I hate how apathetic I've become at this job in just six months.
I've reached out to a few friends about it, and I've received a job offer for a web development position with a boutique advertising agency that a friend of the family owns. I've done some contract design/development work for them in the past, and I get along really well with everyone at the office. The boss is really excited to have me because their web development team is hopelessly short on staff and expertise right now. I would have a lot of autonomy within the role and I'd get to help shape the scope of the projects we take on. While I never saw myself as a developer, I've been daydreaming lately about teaching myself more of web technology at this position and finding myself practically giddy at the thought. They're willing for me to start whenever I'm ready - I could have a job if I walked in there tomorrow. I have a bit of savings, enough for the move and a few months' expenses and whatever exam fees I may have to pay back to my current company. I have no debt, and a good credit rating.
Due to the cyclical nature of the accounting industry, my current company is going through a really busy time right now. Busy season typically ends at the end of April, and my original plan had been to talk to HR in the middle of March and let them know I'm leaving (so that they don't register me for courses/exams), and then leave once our current stream of clients settle down. Another reason I want to stay for the rest of busy season is because we're pretty understaffed right now due to some turnover that occurred right before busy season started, and I'd feel really bad depriving them of one more employee.
But I've also been working exhausting hours due to our being understaffed, and every day I fantasize about just walking in and giving my two weeks. I have a two week gap in the middle of March when I don't have any clients scheduled, and I've been thinking I should just leave then, instead of waiting until May.
However, the HR people at this company really like me and I've gotten really good reviews/feedback from other seniors I've worked with at the company. Since they've "groomed" me since I was a summer intern I kind of feel beholden to them. I know that staying longer (even by a few months) at a job I hate due to past investment is just further feeding into the sunk cost, especially since I intend to never touch accounting again, but I can't help but feel like I'd be letting them down. The convention in the industry is that you stay three years to get your certification, and I've never heard of anyone quitting before their professional exams are done, let alone six months into their first year. And even though I have my next job lined up, I'm concerned that a six-month-stint on my resume immediately following graduation would look flakey to future employers.
TL;DR: I want to leave my job now, and have the means to do so. I feel like I owe it to them to stay until May. Do I?