How do I "do what I love" if I have no idea how to even figure out what the heck that is? Steve Jobs has thrown me into an existential crisis and I need the hive mind to set me on the right path.
First, if you haven't watched Steve Jobs' Stanford commencement speech
, please do so now. It is 15 minutes well spent. Now then...
Watching Steve Jobs' Standford commencement has thrown me into a bit of an existential head fuck this evening with his message about finding what it is you love to do, and spending your life doing it with excellence. It makes me wonder why I'm sitting here, procrastinating responding to an RFP for my day job in digital media, procrastinating filling a big order for my own personal ecomm site, etc. And the only conclusion I can draw is that I don't love what I do.
I truly don't give a shit about any of it.
I have relationships with the people I work with and don't want to screw them, but at the end of the day, the team I manage, and the security my job offers for my standard of living are the only thing keeping me there. The only reason I'm staying in the state I'm in is because of the woman I love and her need to stay near her family so packing up and moving to say, Silicon Valley isn't an option. I'm building up my own business efforts on the side, but I realized I'm not even doing something I'm truly passionate about there either. Its just a way to break free from the concept of "a day job" that I spend too much time in to the point that it is consuming my life for not nearly enough compensation. There's got to be a better way to approach this...right?
So I guess I'm wondering, how many of you have truly found something that you love doing with your life? If you are one of the lucky few, what is it about it that you love so much? I find it hard to believe that anybody has a true love for designing banner ads, building media campaigns, creating pitch decks, etc. But seriously--has anybody here truly found what it is that they love to do in life, and what they want to dedicate the rest of their lives to doing?
Would love to know what it was for you, how you came across it, and how you realized you love doing it.
Thank you in advance for humoring my feeble late-night attempt to reconcile some thoughts by sharing your own experience in this area. I realize I'm not going to find The Answer(tm) from a random post on the internet, but I also realized that I've gotten to where I am in life today largely through getting pointed in the right direction by doing just that. When I completely lacked social skills and had social anxiety disorder, I was able to teach myself and pull myself out of it through the internet. I learned everything I know about digital media and internet marketing myself by reading and testing things online. I've learned about all the random things that have sparked my interest over the years largely from the internet. Here's hoping there's something that comes out of this that will at least send me down a path that gets me closer to my answer.