Academics: how can I be more excited about selecting a dissertation topic and writing the dissertation?
I am about to embark on the dissertation process (unlike
this recent question, I am not to the "I can't finish it" phase yet as I don't have a topic). I have passed my comps, defended the MA thesis (not interested in continuing with this, really), finished coursework, etc. Now "all that's left" is the dissertation. Problem — I can't seem to get interested or excited about it at all and it's sapping my will to do anything constructive. This frustration is seeping over into other aspects of my life as well.
a) I can't seem to select a topic until I know if there's a "hole" in a literature or a question that is unanswered or not. I can't accomplish this until I have done some significant reading and researching, yet I don't really know where to begin and am totally unable to motivate myself to just "start reading." I have lots of little questions written down but none of them jump out at me as potential dissertation topics nor grab me in any way. I am in an inter-disciplinary subfield in the social sciences that doesn't have a tons of overarching unsettled theoretical debates or unifying questions. As such, projects are often more substantive in nature. A successful dissertation requires selecting a part or parts of the world, a period in time, a substantive topic, and a theoretical motivation. Then we get to data availability and tractability.
I am aware that the standard advice is to come up with a research question and then become an expert on that question. How do I get interested in a question?
b) I know that the best dissertation is a finished dissertation; and, normally I am able to push myself to get started on things and I develop interest as I go along. In this case, though, the idea of starting something I'm uninterested in is just driving me insane. My usual tricks aren't working (I still don't believe you either "like something or you don't and you can't force it"). I've been encouraged to think hard about what I find "fascinating" or "enthralling" and return to that. The problem is that
nothing seems so right now. And, to paraphrase one of my advisors, if you're not at all excited about it now, you're setting yourself up for a really long, hard slog of a dissertation.
c) I have some history of depression and am using coping skills learned from therapy to try and not let this drag me down into a pit of despair on a daily basis. I feel like if I can get over this hump and get my wheels turning again, it would help my outlook a lot. So, I'm not looking for "see a therapist" here.
So, what's my next step? I feel like I really need to be getting on the ball here so I can narrow things down and get started constructively. How can I convince myself to just pick something and be done with it?
posted by kch at 7:58 PM on July 7, 2010 [1 favorite]