Finally admitted to myself that I'm an alcoholic. Recovery strategies without AA?
January 5, 2010 4:33 PM Subscribe
I've finally accepted that I'm an alcoholic, and I need some advice.
posted by anonymous to health & fitness (33 answers total) 3 users marked this as a favorite
After many years of fooling myself and telling myself what I suspect are all the usual things, I've finally accepted that I am an alcoholic.
I don't really have a problem stopping...I've done it with varying lengths of periods of success a few times. My problem is staying stopped...after a few months, I start to think to myself "Self, you've been stopped for this long, I think you can let go for one night." One night leads to the inevitable 3 or 4 months before I get all teary eyed and finally find the courage to once again stop.
I have a few problems, the first two immediate, the third for further down the road a piece:
1-Endless insomnia. And by endless, I mean a week or two of hellishly long nights torturing myself over whatever mess I've most recently made and now have to face. Nothing works...not Advil PM, not weed, not Benadryl. By the end of it, when I start sleeping again, I'm a gibbering mess. Any other people in recovery have advice on this one?
2-I can't do AA. I'm almost totally solid on this....the higher power thing is incredibly unappealing to me. Without the thread turning into "Listen, you really should do AA," any alternatives?
3-I'm hoping that finally admitting to myself that I'm powerless over booze will keep me stopped. If it doesn't, and a few months from now I forget about all the misery I'm in right now and become tempted to start again, what (besides AA) strategies have worked for you? I really, really need and want this to work, finally, once and for all.