My boss doesn't care anymore!
June 20, 2008 9:06 PM Subscribe
Should I attend this party? Or rather, how can I justify not going.
posted by frosty_hut to Work & Money (27 answers total) 3 users marked this as a favorite
I work at a non-profit radio station that does a big dinner thing each year--semi-famous speaker, formal attire, well-heeled listeners invited, etc. I got an invitation to attend, but I'm really really really bummed out about my job situation. I don't want to go to this thing, because I'm miserable and resenting management right now.
Brief backstory: I was hired as a fill-in person eighteen months ago. The listeners write to the station glowingly about me, I make money on the air for the place during membership drives, I write blog entries that have gotten ecstatic responses from listeners and my managers, and am generally considered a pretty stellar employee--by all but the guy who hired me.
This guy Stanford (let's call lhim) cultivated me in the beginning, made much of me and massaged my performance quite a bit. All of a sudden the attention stopped, but I thought it was a good thing--a sign he trusted me and was leaving me alone. I work better that way anyway.
Recently he stopped making eye contact with me in meetings, and I found it strange. These were meeting where I was being picked out for praise by other high-rankers, but this guy couldn't even look at me while it was going on. I found it bizarre, but he's a strange guy anyway. Didn't dwell on it for a while.
It turns out, though, that he's trying to hire one Ronda (let's call her) who he tried to hire previously. Political strife with another manager who has since left was the cause, but he always wanted her. Now there's a budget freeze, so he can't hire her full time as he'd like to (according to other employees--nothing official). But she fills in regularly on the weekend. My co-workers have been miffed at the way he's handled it--he's intensely mysterious, won't tell anyone what job she's being massaged for, hasn't introduced her to anyone, etc.
My co-worker said that she's probably next in line for whatever full time position gets freed up after the budge freeze ends in about a year. Given this, if it's true, combined with Stanford's stand-offishness and creepy evasiveness around me, which is pretty much my death knell I think, I've been really discouraged.
Two bright spots in this mess, though:
I contacted another radio station with an aircheck, and they responded right away and said they're interested in me. The guy said it's going to be about a month before he knows exactly what he can offer me, but it will likely be part time. Still, it's a prestigious station and I want to go after it. Nothing in the bag, but I'm hoping. Hate the waiting thing.
Another possible plus is that the board has just hired a new CEO who will be everyone's manager (including Standford's). If he likes me, he might offer me something other than sporadic fill in.
I'm having bizarre fears, though, that Stanford is bad-mouthing me to the new CEO, and that he's trying to keep his foot on my neck during the transition, because he's trying to be Ronda's star-maker. Actually, another co-worker said it's been rumored Stanford has a thing for Ronda. And Stanford has hired his friends in the past.
It doesn't really matter anymore, but I find myself worrying about the true reasons Stanford lost interest in me. It's gotten as crazy as: Did he expect me to sleep with him? I didn't--is that why I can't get hired?
I'm in a holding pattern. The new offer may only be part time, in which case I'll still have to work here. I don't want to have a bad attitude. What can I do to feel renewed? I'm hoping the new CEO will be interested in me--if he doesn't ask to meet with us individually, I'm going to ask for a meeting. I'll try to not to be so negative that he thinks I'm a danger to self and others...but how much of my heart should I open to the new guy? Should I come clean with my frustrations, or behave like a happy camper in order to impress him with how positive I am? Or does it depend on him?