How to not freak out while waiting to see a doctor?
March 7, 2014 6:55 AM Subscribe
I have had some weird blood test results lately. My doctor is not sure what it's from, but said that worst case scenario would be leukemia. She wants me to see a hematologist but the soonest available appointment is till over a week away. I have always suffered from pretty severe hypochondria/health-anxiety/whatever, and the fact that my doctor mentioned the L word, and the uncertainty and waiting, not to mention the absolute worst timing, is killing me. I can barely work or sleep.
posted by polywomp to Health & Fitness (13 answers total) 2 users marked this as a favorite
When I had a physical last year (and first time ever having a blood count) my WBC was a bit high, but the doctor didn't think anything of it. It's steadily increased though, despite a round of amoxicillin, so now I am just freaking out. I am a severe hypochondriac, and a swollen lymph node a couple months ago, combined with an adverse reaction to Wellbutrin, had me thinking I had lymphoma. I had panic attacks and was in hysterics for days. This time, I'm not having panic attacks, but I think I am spiraling into despair. I'm obsessively researching things that can cause an increased WBC, types of leukemia, etc., and filling my brain with information that is in no way good for me.
The worst part is that I have a thing scheduled this summer out of country, which cost my entire savings, which cannot be rescheduled, and I wouldn't even if it was possible. That means that if the worst case scenario was the actual scenario, I would have to postpone or interrupt treatment, to ensure I was strong enough to travel, do the thing, etc. Ultimately, that would be a decision with...consequences.
I have seriously been planning a funeral already and I haven't even seen the specialist yet. How do I stop!?