my depression's back. now what?
February 25, 2014 9:29 AM Subscribe
My depression has slowly, subtly trickled back into my life and now it is here full-throttle. I don't know what I'm supposed to do or what I need to feel better.
posted by DayTripper to Human Relations (16 answers total) 6 users marked this as a favorite
I was doing so well and was completely happy and anxiety-free for several months when I started Prozac last summer. Now I'm finding it almost impossible to get out of bed in the morning. I'm always lethargic. I cry sometimes. I feel hopeless and lonely and worthless. The simplest tasks feel like overwhelming chores.
I sought therapy when I felt the symptoms were coming back, but many of the CBT-oriented therapists in my area are not accepting new clients. I settled on a psychoanalytical guy, but I really don't know if it's helped at all. He likes for me to talk about my past and my dreams and my repressed anger, etc. I think I may need more concrete tools, but he said I have too much "depth" for CBT.
I've also found that being around my parents makes it worse. I went home this weekend to recharge and study and eat home-cooked meals, and when I came back to my apartment on Sunday I felt awful. I'm close to my mom and we speak every day, but I can't stand my dad (he is an alcoholic, and a very negative, critical person). When I was doing well mentally, I felt like I could be around them without getting wrapped up in the dysfunctionality of it all. Lately I feel like it just takes over and makes me feel worthless and bitter all over again.
Anyway, I guess I need a few hacks or pick-me-ups just to get me up from this low point. How can I force myself to get out of bed in the morning? Today, I planned to go to a 7AM workout, and school after at 930. I slept through both, snoozing my alarm for 3+ hours.
I tried filling my planner up for the week with daily Things To Do, i.e., scheduled work-out classes, put in my class times, work hours, and put in a few hours of studying every day. I thought being in a busy routine would help, but I can't get myself to even get through one day of it. UGH.