I feel like I’m not good enough. How can I battle my depression
January 25, 2014 10:11 PM Subscribe
I’m a 25 year old female and have been going through a lot of depression over the past year, mostly in the areas of finance and romance.
posted by summertimesadness1988 to Human Relations (19 answers total) 24 users marked this as a favorite
All of my close friends have gotten into serious relationships in the past year, including my best friend. We talked daily for six years, but now I hear from her maybe once a month, no matter how much I try reaching out to her. I’ve kind of backed off now, since she seems to be busy. It’s the same with my other friends, and one of them is a guy friend who I’ve been in love with for a little over four years. He never saw relationship potential with me, but is now in a committed relationship with a gorgeous girl, which makes me feel even worse: looking at his girlfriend, I feel like I never stood a chance.
Also, I graduated from a Master’s program in English about a month ago, and am applying for jobs: it’s a long, tiring process, and the responses I’ve gotten are polite versions of “thanks but no thanks.” So, I’m stuck at an unfulfilling part-time job at a local recreation center. I also live with my parents, which wouldn’t be a problem, but they are very critical and controlling, so it makes my situation that much harder.
So recently, with all the stress and rejection piling on, I’m just feeling like I’m not good enough, for any job or man. Which sucks, because at some level I know I’m attractive, educated, caring, funny, all that, but currently I just feel inadequate and undesirable. I don’t know how to make the feelings go away. I take yoga and zumba classes, run regularly, read self-help books, and just started on an affirmation workbook which I work in every night. I’ve tried therapy; it only makes me feel better temporarily, and mostly has been a waste of money. Anti depressants have awful side effects. I joined a meetup group for women my age in the area, which is really fun, but the depression creeps back in just hours after I come home from an event.
I’m at the end of my rope here. I’ve tried everything I can think of to feel better, but I am depressed every single day of my life. Is there anything else I can do stop feeling so sad and worthless? I don’t know where else to turn.