need help surviving the worst breakup I've had
December 3, 2013 6:52 PM Subscribe
I just got dumped by my partner. It was the best relationship I've ever been in. I feel like my life is falling apart. Please advise.
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I'm not currently working. I'm really unmotivated about housekeeping stuff and he lived with me and did a lot of it and the stuff I was good about doing I motivated myself by doing it because it made us happier together to have a better space. Almost all of my friends live far away. I'm 25 and I've been in several relationships before but all of them had a deterioration period and I've never been dumped in one that was serious before.
I already suffer from depression and though it's under control with medication it's never really gone away.
In the relationship, I was the one who was really good at coming up with fun things to do, things to watch, places to go. But now I feel like I've shared all these things I love with him and now they all remind me of him, so it's really hard to use escapism== video games, books, tv, etc-- because none of them feel like they're mine anymore.
I don't know what to do with myself. I don't know how to keep my life together anymore. Part of it is that I just feel awful and can't stop crying, but having someone in my life was really helping me get on my feet with the depression and getting my life together and I'm terrified of doing that alone.
The combination of the fear of the future and the melancholy from the breakup has me paralyzed.
Just thinking about going outside is terrifying, I hate crying and being vulnerable in public. I had to psych myself up to be fake cheerful enough to answer the door when I ordered a pizza.
I need advice. I also need to hear that I can survive this, because right now I can't imagine being able to.