dealing with intrusive thoughts
June 20, 2013 6:57 AM Subscribe
Hi Hivemind. So, when I was a kid I suffered badly from intrusive thoughts. I am a LOT better now, but every so often my intrusive thoughts get triggered, usually from being in a particular place where I had a bad episode as a teenager. I have to go there regularly and often at night when I am trying to go to sleep I'll have another episode. How to deal, apart from therapy? I'm on the waiting list.
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Hi guys. Okay, so background: As a kid I had intrusive 'bad thoughts' from around the age of 7 or 8, and probably a wider anxiety issue - I was very superstitious and ritualistic (I used to pray obsessively because I thought that if I didn't, my parents would die) and as a young preteen/teen I was guilt-ridden about my burgeoning sexuality. When I was 16-17 I had a very bad few months and was probably clinically depressed. I never had any kind of treatment for this, as I felt too bad to talk about it to anyone except my mom, who was very understanding. We have a plethora of mental illnesses in our family (schizophrenia, depression and bipolar 2).
Anyway, at the age of 18 I left home for university and ever since then have been completely OK. I think I just needed more friends and company and things to occupy me, as I was a bit of a lonely kid.
When I think back to being a kid I feel like all those bad thoughts and feelings happened to a completely different person, and I feel really sorry for that kid.
But I visit home a few times a year to visit the family, and each time, without fail, I'll have a minor episode of intrusive thoughts at night. I have a feeling it is just triggered by the sensation of being at home again, a place where I had my worst episodes. It's absolutely minor compared to what I went through as a child. I feel fine during the day. But I hate it, all the same. I just want to have peaceful nights. What is the best way to deal with these stupid thoughts? Has anyone else experienced this, and what have you found to be helpful?
I am not on any form of medication. I've have some anxiety therapy in the past but nothing else. I'm seeking therapy, but in the country I live in, it takes a while to get access.