How can I avoid self-sabotage and turn this internship into a career?
May 17, 2012 8:28 AM Subscribe
I just landed a dream internship (part time, unpaid) that will probably last about 6-8 months. Please help me avoid self sabotage so I can turn it into a job/career.
posted by anonymous to Work & Money (7 answers total) 3 users marked this as a favorite
How can I not sabotage myself so that this incredible opportunity becomes a career prospect? This is the first position I've held in a field I am truly interested in and want to pursue. Frankly, having spent my 20's doing stuff I was only marginally interested in and feeling like I should've spent that time interning and climbing the ladder in a field I really wanted to be in, I am desperate to now make it work--better late than never, especially since I now realize what I want to be doing. This is a dream opportunity to learn and gain experience in an area in which I have absolutely no experience or background.
However, any time I'm faced with a challenge, particularly one that could result in success and recognition, I tend to collapse under the anxiety of screwing it up. This results in constant preoccupation with how I and my work are being received as well as visibly lacking confidence in my abilities, which affects people's perception of my capabilities as well as my actual work performance.
If you've been in a situation that feels too-good-to-be-true and are constantly afraid of blowing it, to the point that you kind of do blow it, you know where I am coming from. If you've been in this situation and have figured out how to work hard, excel, and prove to colleagues, superiors and yourself that you are competent, bright, and talented, please tell me how you do/did it. Tips or suggestions of all kinds are welcome.
Also, if you have more concrete insight into how to be a go-getter, create opportunities for yourself, and put yourself on path to achieve/earn what you want, please share that with me, too.
I am on a break from therapy and hope to go back eventually, but it's not realistically going to happen in the near future.
I'm a well educated person living in a big city. I am in my early 30's.