How can I motivate myself to work?
January 31, 2012 5:52 PM Subscribe
How can I motivate myself to work? What did you do to help kick yourself in the posterior and get going? Special snowflake details inside.
posted by anonymous to work & money (12 answers total) 57 users marked this as a favorite
I've been suffering from extreme bouts of apathy, lack of motivation, and poor work ethic, particularly when it comes to my job. I'm slowly making progress on the home-care front, but I'm feeling increasingly resistant to doing any work at my job, and I think this is going to surface as a major issue in no time if I don't change my behavior NOW. Right now I feel like I'm treading water -- the head of my office seems to be catching on that I haven't been terribly productive, and made a comment during my mid-year review that I should focus more on the "doing" rather than the "researching" of new projects. I do tend to like to come up with ideas and solutions rather than execute them. (For instance, I work in a communications capacity, and rather than doing any actual writing, I'm poking around the internet for ideas on what to write about and where to promote ourselves.) I realize this is not what anyone wants in an employee. I would say I've had a historical issue with following through and staying focused. But I'm also doing things at work that are just plain old goofing off: playing with my phone, googling my various medical issues, etc. We're talking weeks of this behavior. And I do feel bad/guilty about this, but am having trouble stopping. When people ask me for help for immediate tasks I'm ok, it's just the projects that are MINE - writing-heavy tasks - that I have trouble with. I'm not blatantly ignoring people who are coming to me with simple questions. As I was hired as a writer, and that's where my background and (alleged?) strength is, I can't ask to NOT do these tasks.
Other potentially relevant info: *I would say this has been an issue in previous situations, just not to this level of severity. Also, I used to work in academic settings - this is a "real" job so maybe the environment is a factor. * I took this job ~6 months ago knowing it was a difficult office to work in because the head of the office is known to be petty, micromanaging and bordering on narcissistic disorder. But I needed a job and figured I'd take it and try it. Unfortunately that person is what people had described, and while she hasn't been abusive to me like she has been with other new employees (to the point that one coworker pointed out "you must be doing something right - she really likes you!"), I feel like a stubborn child rebelling against it. * I'm questioning this job and career in general, which doesn't help. I've been told I'm a good writer, but I've always been a slow and pained one. I'm questioning why I ever marketed myself as one, questioning if I even like writing, and so forth. * I try telling myself, "Hey, getting fired isn't going to look good no matter what career you're in." but I'm not listening to myself. * I have a problem with attention and focus (no ADHD diagnosis though), as well as depression and fatigue, and take and have tried a variety of meds (antidepressants/antipsychotics as well as stimulants) to treat both. I have been under a doctor's care for these issues and am trying to figure out whether to try new providers. I see my psych. dr. this week. * I talked to a confidential employee counselor about this. Not sure where that will go. He gave me some resources for mental health providers, and I will report back after seeing a doc. He stressed that self-care is most important but I've started to panic as my work is piling up, and I keep on thinking "oh, tomorrow will be better! Fresh start and I'll bang this all out then!" but for weeks now this keeps on moving on.
Anyone ever reach this depth of apathy? What kicked you in the rear and got you going again? what tools or tricks do you recommend? how did you force yourself to accomplish anything?
Thanks in advance. throwaway email: rearkick -a.t.- rocketmail dot com