I feel that my doctors are overdiagnosing me - psychiatrists, specialists, and even pcps. I feel like a lab rat or a trophy case for them - "here's one of my patients, she encompassed the entire diagnostic manual, ha ha!" What's going on?
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I see three doctors currently: my primary doctor (physician) whom I've seen for all 18 years of my life, my psychiatrist, whom I've seen for a year and whom I detest with all my being, and a gynecologist, whom I saw a few months ago to go on birth control because of my extremely uncomfortable periods.
My psychiatrist I've always known to be diagnose-crazy. Every week I went in, I was diagnosed with something new. First it was depression after I tried committing suicide. I was sent to a psychiatric hospital where they further diagnosed me with social anxiety with agoraphobia, obsessive-compulsive disorder, and panic disorder. When I returned to my normal psychiatrist, it began a long year of being diagnosed with something new every week - and prescribed medications for these new disorders.
My complete list so far (in chronological order): major depression, social anxiety, agoraphobia, OCD, Bipolar 1 with psychotic symptoms, Bipolar 2, borderline personality disorder, schizoid personality disorder, Asperger Syndrome, and Attention Deficit Disorder. All of these are on my medical record, forever, along with the three psychiatric hospitalizations that I've been to after being diagnosed.
My initial depression was situational - I had been broken up with long-distance for the first time, and I didn't know how to handle it. Over the next few months, I got over it. But this psychiatrist wouldn't stop. I've been on so many medications that the half-empty bottles are overflowing my counter. Lithium, Prozac, Klonopin, Buspar, Concerta, Seroquel, Risperdal - I feel like I have my own pharmacy. I've been seeing this shrink for over a year, and every visit comes with a new diagnosis and a new prescription. I'm sick of it. I feel like a lab rat - "let's put this strong chemical inside you for something you probably don't have and see what happens." Bad things have happened every time. Prozac made me try to kill myself. Klonopin gives me amnesia. Lithium made me sleepwalk. Concerta makes me feel like I'm having a heart attack. After one round of the medication, we switch to a wholly unrelated diagnosis.
It doesn't stop with psychiatry. Recently I've been on the birth control pill to control my heavy, painful menstruation. I missed a pill before Christmas and my period started. It has not stopped since. It's been going for almost a month. One doctor said it was simply mennoraghia that would subside as I kept taking the pills. One doctor said it was a blood disease called von Willebrand's. Now my primary doctor is saying it's an eating disorder. I do not have an eating disorder. I eat every other day because we don''t have enough food to eat three meals a day. I don't binge. I don't purge. it's all bullshit to me.
I feel like these doctors are after me. I feel like they see me as an experiment. "Does she have a symptom of this disease sometimes? well she must have the disease. Medicate her." "What haven't I diagnosed her with yet that I can get away with doing today?" I'm so sick of it. I've looked around for other doctors but none of them are taking new patients. I'm trapped. The doctors always call my mom and tell her what I've been diagnosed with. I am the last person to know, even though I'm an adult and should be the first to know. all of this seems unethical to me and it's breaking me down. There's no way I have all of these things, but hearing constantly that I do is destroying me.
The question: is this common practice for doctors? Has anybody ever experienced these trains of diagnoses that never, ever end? What should I do? I can't take much more of this. it's breaking me and I feel subhuman, like I'm just a game piece for these doctors. I just don't know what to do but I have to do something, because internally it's destroying me completely and I know from experience that it's only a matter of time before I completely break and end up in another ward, where this time they'll diagnose me again without even talking to me. I need out of this. I've been in it for years and I need out, or at least an explanation as to why this is happening.