... makes me stronger.
January 2, 2012 5:52 PM Subscribe
I want to punish myself. I want to do something that will involve hard work and hardship, that I can't get out of, that will not involve many other people, and won't cost a lot of money. Something like a long hiking journey through remote wilderness, or a boot camp, health camp or retreat where I don't have to be with a group, just me and some jailors. Suggestions?
I'm thinking sort of like the hiking the Appalachian Trail that Bill Bryson did in "A Walk In The Woods". I want to walk (or work hard, physically, breaking rocks or whatever) every day, go to sleep when I get too tired to continue, wake up and keep doing it. Eat a minimal food ration, no comforts, no social life. I don't want to be able to quit easily, so I need to be stuck, in the wilderness, or in confinement, away from rescue.
My main goal is simply to punish myself, but the side benefits I would hope for are to lose weight, get in shape, and get away from thinking too much about what other people think. I want my world to narrow down to survival and endurance, and grow stronger from surviving the experience.
I have a few months in the summer and fall in which I have nothing else to do, and I have no one I am leaving behind or who will miss me if I die. I am turning 40 so you can look at this as a mid-life crisis if you want. I am not suicidal but I have a strong need to prove myself to myself, by myself.
Please do not suggest therapy and please do not suggest I do volunteer work with charities. I do not want to interact socially with others in this matter and avoiding social contact is part of my self-punishment.
I don't want to spend a lot of money on camping gear and I don't have the money to go on an expensive private retreat. I would say my budget is about $1k at most.