Why don't I want to shower? Even thinking about it makes me twitch a bit.
On a daily basis, I find myself reluctant to take a shower. I work from home a fair amount so I don't really need
to shower all the time, but it is still perplexing just why I don't want to do it and I often get to the point where I actively feel dirty. I can't put my finger on it, but at the end of the day as I am lying in bed I realize that I managed to go another day without showering.
I usually do shower when I'm going to be around other people and as a result it doesn't get in the way of interactions with others (although it can be a problem if someone shows up unannounced and I don't have a chance to wash up beforehand, or if I'm suddenly running late and don't have time to shower1
The weird thing is I actually usually enjoy the shower once I'm in it, but the reluctance to start the shower is great. I even feel a weird sort of dread just before I turn on the water.
I realize that hygiene is important, and I'm pretty sure the solution to this problem is just forcing myself to take a shower at the same time every day -- probably before bedtime so I can't use waking up a bit late as an excuse -- but man it would help if I could figure out why on earth I feel this way.
I think the situation is different than this AskMe
where someone only showered or brushed their teeth twice a month and refused to change their behavior. First, though I'm also married my wife usually doesn't mind unless it's been a few days since my last shower. (She is less forgiving if I forget to brush. I do have only a slight, slight aversion to brushing/flossing and so it also gets left behind if I'm not conscientious about it, but I do care about losing my teeth.) Also, we're also talking about a worst-case scenario of me showering 2 times/week rather than just 2 times per month. The main difference, though, is I actively want to become someone who cleans myself more often. I just need to figure out why I'm so weirdly averse to it.
1 And yes, sometimes I feel that might be happening on purpose
Possibly useful data points: male, mid-30s, happily employed, ADHD, 2 cats. Had this as an issue for as long as I can remember.