Fear of getting a job?
March 11, 2011 7:21 AM Subscribe
I seem to have this block, for lack of a better word, around the subject of making money. I'm really afraid of doing work that sacrifices my integrity or that doesn't suit my talents.
"Scraping by" is a phrase I seem to think a lot (mostly with handouts from family members), but I don't want to live like this anymore. I frequently think about work that I would hate to do, but have little idea about what I would actually like to do for a living. I have a degree (in business) but my eyes just glaze over whenever I look at job ads in my field of study.
I just don't know why I have so much trouble looking at it as "just a job." My family, friends, and acquaintances by far DON'T seem to have this problem at all, so they don't understand what is wrong with me, why I can't get going, why I haven't gotten any job at all and why I don't have any money.
I know I'm not lazy; I can work hard and carefully; I have an education and skills. Maybe it's got something to do with low self-confidence or self-worth?
I guess I sort of know what my talents are (mostly artistic), but I haven't developed them for fear that they won't make me money (wow, that really sounds backward and, well, dumb when written down).
I don't know if it makes any sense, but if you have experienced a similar situation I would love to know how you overcame.