I have had a strong fear of needles for as long as I can remember. I had an appointment to have some blood drawn earlier today - beforehand, I did all my research for the test to go as smoothly as possible: I read some previous threads
(with some difficulty), I ate beforehand and drank plenty of water, I took some clonazepam left over from my last set of injections, I brought my boyfriend along to distract me.
It was to no avail. I freaked out anyway, and after 20 minutes of the nurse getting increasingly exasperated, and me in tears, I left feeling humiliated, defeated, exhausted and weak-willed.
I've had injections before and been okay (very anxious, but I still went through with them), but the last time I've had anything stuck in my inner arm was an IV when I had some teeth pulled in elementary school - and that didn't go well the first time, either. The idea of having the inside of my arm exposed and the possibility of them not finding a vein, in addition to my fear of needles (both the pain and just the penetration of the skin), leaves me terrified.
I need to go through with the blood draw, but I know I can't have something like this happen again. What steps can I take, beyond what I've tried, to increase my confidence and lessen my fear, especially after a failed attempt?