Should I drop out of law school or finish my last year, or get a MBA? I need help fixing my life.
January 27, 2011 10:29 AM Subscribe
I am 24 years old and am just having a tough time with life in general. One of my most specific problems is that I am currently in my second year of law school (the school is ranked right around 100) and I hate it. I don't know whether it would be best to finish my law degree, apply to a MBA program, or just drop out completely and get whatever job I can find and start working my way up.
I do have a partial diversity scholarship for my law school (I am part Native American), but it isn’t a lot of money. I am in the bottom half of the class (2.9GPA). This is due to a variety of other things I am dealing with, but that still doesn’t change the facts. While I liked school and learning the law, I realized more and more that this wasn’t what I wanted to do. I thought I had done plenty of research about law school before I agreed to go, but it really just isn’t what I thought. I know this is just an excuse for why I entered law school, but I was getting married and my major depression was making me feel trapped. I really thought law school was my only option for a happy life. I have found out since then, that law school (and a legal career) will not make me happy. I told myself I would make it through my first year of school and my summer internship to see if I really hated it. This fall I intended on dropping out, but my depression got out of control and it took all I had physically and emotionally to make it the last few months alive. I felt I couldn’t drop out, because I had nothing else I could do and I needed the financial aid to pay my bills. Additionally, having to go to class made me get out of my apartment for a few hours each day.
I went home for winter break and tried to recharge myself and get things under control. I have finally gotten on some strong medication to help with my depression and I have weekly therapy appointments so that I can get help with my depression. Things have been improving, but I know it will be a long battle. I am enrolled in the current semester of law school and have been going to my classes, but I am still unhappy. I think the reason I haven’t left yet is that I don’t have anything else. I know I could try to get a retail job and try to make my bills with that. I don’t have much work experience. I did 5 years at Best Buy while I was in undergrad and that is it. My undergrad degree is in Communication Studies, which I chose for no particular reason. The classes I have done well in, in undergrad and law school, have all been business classes. I just find the content more interesting and I feel the way my brain thinks is more relatable to business than law. So, I have been thinking about getting a MBA. I will be honest, I have just started researching what a MBA actually entails and whether it would be worth it, but I just wanted to know what some other people thought.
I know that I have gotten myself into quite a mess right now. I am trying to put my life back together and plan for the future. I also know that the reason I am where I am right now is my own making. I don’t blame anyone else and I understand that I have made some mistakes. I know I will probably make more mistakes along the way, but I really want to fix things as best I can and create a good opportunity for my future.
I guess I am just looking for some general advice, suggestions, or thoughts on what to do. I am talking with things to my counselor, but I wanted to get some advice from other people as well. I really appreciate any constructive help one might offer. Thank you.
Some additional facts:
After this semester I would only have 1 more year of law school. My fall semester would be doing an externship (my school requires at least 3 units are spent doing one, but I can do up to 15 and make my externship my whole semester, which is my plan). My spring semester would be spent at Temple University’s Tokyo campus, which I have been looking forward to since I entered law school.
I really thought that I wanted to become an attorney and do work specifically with Japan. I have always loved Japanese culture (I am not an Otaku(nerd)). I have been to Japan a few times and speak the language fairly well. Whether I do the MBA or not, I still want my ultimate goal to be to somehow work with Japan. I considered dropping out and teaching English in Japan for a little while, but I did not get my JET application done in time.