This was me.
I applied for an internal management position at work. I was ambivalent, but my supervisor really encouraged me to apply. Despite hesitations (some of which were outlined in my earlier post), I did apply. After the phone interview and a week or two of consideration (including a few chats with a therapist), I told my boss I was going to back out, and he talked me into not withdrawing my application (he said he wouldn't share my concerns with the rest of the search committee, but of course my ambivalence didn't make me a stronger candidate).
So, I went ahead, mostly without ambivalence, and had a good interview.
Two other very qualified candidates, both external, also came in for interviews. Apparently they did very well (I wasn't part of their interviews, of course).
Now I'm reading the tea leaves and suspect I won't get the job offer. Which is mostly fine--I'm respected at work, and I really enjoy my current position, and while it'll be a bit of an ego blow, it'll also be a relief of sorts. I don't think this is just sour grapes.
However, sometimes my emotions get the best of me. I'm worried, frankly, that when I sit down with my supervisor or his supervisor and get the "We really value you and we are giving the position to someone else" chat, that I'll break down. I really don't want to do that. I want to be a graceful reject and not feel like I'm losing my dignity at work.
I'm not worried about the long term, but mostly how I conduct myself in the short term. So, do you have any tips for me? I welcome strategies to keep perspective, mentally prep for the rejection conversation, and tips on how to keep my eyes dry and head clear throughout (or at least until I get home and have a nice ridiculous cry about this whole thing). The longer it takes to hear the news, the more anxious I'm growing.