forgetful in the membrane
September 19, 2010 4:00 PM Subscribe
How can I be more careful/detail-oriented at work? I don't know how to fix something when I'm already trying my hardest at it.
posted by anonymous to Society & Culture (14 answers total) 39 users marked this as a favorite
I recently started a very admin-heavy new office job. Multiple people are asking me to do many random things all day. I mostly love my job, and I enjoy the busy pace, and the ability to be a general point-person for whatever anyone needs help with, and for the most part I have been very successful in handling this. But I have committed a few oversights, errors which are minor in scope but very important in practice, because there is a strong emphasis on perfection. These errors are very stupid things, like somehow not seeing a file in a group, or mixing up print-outs; not really things I can attribute to being new.
I find my deficiency in this realm very distressing, because I am really giving my all to this job. It's not like I'm messing up because I'm too busy checking my cow patties in Farmville, or walking up and down the hall looking for people to chat with. I don't do anything at work except work, I am always pleasant and acquiescing, and agree happily to all tasks that are asked of me, including offering to do more than necessary for a task. I'm already fully focused on my work, so it's frustrating that there's this element of carelessness that feels sort of beyond my control. I don't know how to convince my colleagues/bosses that these things "won't happen again" when I can't even convince myself, because I already work hard to, yet sometimes fail to, prevent them.
I've held lots of jobs before but never one where the little details were this important. Sometimes it feels like I'm missing some sort of gene keeping everyone else's brains on the right track. Just the fact that I even can keep track of all the thing that need to get done-- never mind the outcome-- feels like a major victory to me.
Maybe relevant, but maybe not: I have OCD, which I don't medicate, and have also strongly suspected for a while that I might have ADHD.