Why is it all so hard?
September 8, 2010 8:28 PM Subscribe
Should all responsibilities feel like a heavy weight, on a day to day basis?
In class and at work I am constantly checking the clock, waiting for when it will be finally over. When I get back to my room, I want to lay in bed for the rest of the day. What's with that?
posted by anonymous to Grab Bag (21 answers total) 33 users marked this as a favorite
I always am counting down for things to end. When I am in class, I am constantly looking at the clock. When I am at work I am constantly looking at the clock. When I am at class or work, a majority of the time, I find it a struggle, alot of effort, to keep going. It just feels hard to pay attention, take good notes, and prevent myself from being bored to death. (Bored is a bad word to use, usually the material is interesting, but I hate being stuck, I wouldn't mind exploring the material on my own time, if I had lots of extra time.)
I know school and work aren't supposed to be super exciting or fun or even pleasant all the time. But I feel like the fact that I am fighting in my mind and it feels like a struggle to do these things, every day, has got to be a less than optimal way to go through it all.
Once I return home for the evening, I just love to lay down. Even if I am not sleepy I just want to lay in my bed and be as comfortable as absolutely possible. Many times when I am doing homework at night, I end up giving up sooner than I want to and going to sleep. I am not always dead tired when this happens, but instead I am extremely uncomfortable while I am working and I am dying to be comfortable.
So I turn to sleep, to escape the discomfort. And sleep is wonderful.
The fact that I go through my day struggling when I perform any responsibility and being constantly unhappy about having these responsibilities worries me. If I keep things up this way, life will be very unpleasant. Your experiences, solutions?
I feel like at a point, I should have become habituated to the burden of work and school, and it wouldn't feel like it takes everything, and lots of discomfort, to take care of these things every day.