Might get fired! how do I plan?
February 12, 2014 4:39 PM Subscribe
The CEO of my company is kind of... mercurial, and given to dramatic gestures. I've been overhearing yelling about productivity and firing people (their office is right next to mine and their voice carries). Yesterday I heard my name mentioned. I am... not in a great position to get a new job. Help me plan for the worst?
posted by anonymous to Work & Money (17 answers total) 5 users marked this as a favorite
The CEO usually is not involved in the day to day goings on in the company until there is a problem. Then, My they come in and make sweeping changes without consulting the people who are actually doing the job (and thus might have a better idea of how to fix things.
My job involves a lot of admin work- necessary, but not directly profitable. The CEO had decided this is a problem. My immediate manager (who is awesome) has always told me what I'm doing is needed, and also that I do a really good job and that he'll stand up for me because he needs me, but I'm concerned they may just fire me on a day when he's out of the office. (They've done this before, although not to his employees). The reason the company is in trouble is because almost a whole department quit recently because they were treated badly & paid poorly. My department is picking up slack, but it means we're less efficient. Our awesome manager is the only reason we're still here.
I wouldn't be so concerned if I'd been a perfect employee, but recently I've been having a bad depressive & anxious spell. My immediate manager knows about this and has been supportive, but I've caught some mistakes I made and I'm afraid there's more I haven't caught. In this business, a mistake can sit dormant for months and then rear up suddenly. People have been fired because of something they'd done wrong half a year before if the wrong person caught it. Now the CEO is personally checking things, and I'm afraid any mistakes I've made, combined with the non-profitability of my position will lead to me getting the axe. If I'm fired for cause, I can't get unemployment (I'm pretty sure? I'm in Southern California). And of course, in the meantime, hearing them yelling through their office is making me so stressed I can't concentrate (so more mistakes and less productivity, yaaay). Based on past experience it might blow over, or they might fire half the people here.
I want to leave anyway (can you tell it's not a great environment?) But my credit is lousy, and I've got student loans and rent that take up most of my paycheck, so I have no savings. Worse, my drivers license might be suspended. There was a mix up with my payment of a fixit ticket, of all things, and while I paid the fine apparently there was something else I didn't do, and I can't find the letter and haven't dealt with it because the depression made it overwhelming to think about, and I still have no idea how to even start dealing with it. I can walk to my current job, but that... kind of limits my potential job search. I don't have a degree and my attempts to finish have stalled because of money (no more deferment on student loans even if I'm still in school and my parents are cosigners so I can't just bail) and depression (treated now, but it waxes and wanes).
Ugh. I know this is a lot. I'm sorry. I'm just completely overwhelmed- I can't even begin to think of how to proceed. I need to get out of here, that's clear, but I don't know how much time I have to plan, so all I can do is panic. Any tips for steps to take, or how to get through the day with curling under my desk in a catatonic stupor?