Help me change and reaffirm my mindset that I need to stop doing drugs.
August 12, 2012 8:56 AM Subscribe
How do I stop doing drugs when it is so involved with my friends and my own personal view of artistic creativity?
posted by lyinlion to Society & Culture (54 answers total) 16 users marked this as a favorite
I've spent the last 8 years of my life partying hard and doing drugs. I've recently just graduated university, and after a pretty terrible month of interpersonal relationships and a personal meltdown, I've lost my best friends and my boyfriend. After a month of recuperation and a couple sessions with a therapist, all of this has led to an understanding that several changes must be made in my life, here and now, so as for me to be better acclimated to adult life and independence.
So here's the thing: I'm a creative/artist in Los Angeles. I've spent nearly all my life romanticizing this idea of a drug-addled artist living against the grain of society. For the most part, I've lived up to that (without having made any considerable works of art yet). It started off with weed and alcohol, then moved to all kinds of hallucinogens and party drugs (namely ecstasy/MDMA), and then onto harder ones like cocaine and pharmaceuticals in the past year. Nothing too incredibly addicting, apart from the cocaine (which I didn't like but still did a lot of) and the pharmaceuticals (which I don't get with as much frequency or ease). Nearly all my friends are creatives in the entertainment/party business (successful musicians, professional party throwers, etc.), and if they aren't, they are incredibly intelligent people successfully working in all areas of academia or intellectual careers. I can say without a doubt that nearly all of these friends do drugs...and maybe it's because I'm still young and have a limited scope on these things, but they're very successful at what they do.
So I'd like your best reasoning towards why I should stop doing drugs. I don't think I'm addicted yet (or maybe I am, you tell me), and I'm constantly surrounded by people who make it seem like it's alright to do drugs because they're still successful, functioning members of society. I'm afraid I'll slip out of this drug-free attitude because the "glamour" of what drugs can be has been so entrenched in my mindset for a very long time, but quitting is something I definitely want to do. I suppose this seems like a very basic question that can be answered by a rehashing of DARE, but at a very early age (when I discovered weed), I reasoned out most of the arguments towards anti-drug use as closed-minded or naive. Anyway, I think I've learned and "expanded my mind" to the greatest extent I can, but stopping is so...difficult. So please, how do I fully stop drugs when it's something that's so much a part of my mindset, lifestyle, and social circle? Life experience and anecdotes welcome.
(not sure what category to put this under)