Thinking about suicide.
April 24, 2012 4:16 PM Subscribe
Thinking about suicide
I have recently thinking about suicide. I feel like my life sucks and there is no way I am going to have a good life. I am 21 years old and miss the way my life was growing up. I used to love being around my mother, but now I feel awkward around her and the rest of my family. I have been living with my grandparents since high school, which I graduated in 2009. I haven't lived with either my dad, nor my mother. I used to have to go between the two every two days and every other weekend. My mother remarried when I started high school. I never got along with my father all that good. I am being pressured in getting through college fast and getting a job. My grandfather and step-father are both telling me they are sick of my attitude and I need to get a job, which is almost impossible, because I am a fulltime student at a community college.
Also almost everything reminds me of the past and it feels like everything is moving too fast.
Lately I have been thinking about suicide and if anyone would truly miss me. I am also thinking about what would happen to me after i died. Is there something after death?
I am feeling Claustrophobia and feel like my life has no meaning and that it is only going to get worse.
I have tried going to doctors and trying anti-depressants, but they don't seem to work and I cannot talk about myself with others, especially with family around.
I also find my upset because I cannot travel to other universes/dimensions where things are better. This also includes animated words, such as cartoon words.
I also feel like my life sucks and is very different than that of normal people and I don't know what I can do. The idea about going to doctors and therapist, seems to be a bad idea. I don't think they can help.
I also feel like everything in the current world is trying to do me in.
WHAT CAN I DO????
I have recently thinking about suicide. I feel like my life sucks and there is no way I am going to have a good life. I am 21 years old and miss the way my life was growing up. I used to love being around my mother, but now I feel awkward around her and the rest of my family. I have been living with my grandparents since high school, which I graduated in 2009. I haven't lived with either my dad, nor my mother. I used to have to go between the two every two days and every other weekend. My mother remarried when I started high school. I never got along with my father all that good. I am being pressured in getting through college fast and getting a job. My grandfather and step-father are both telling me they are sick of my attitude and I need to get a job, which is almost impossible, because I am a fulltime student at a community college.
Also almost everything reminds me of the past and it feels like everything is moving too fast.
Lately I have been thinking about suicide and if anyone would truly miss me. I am also thinking about what would happen to me after i died. Is there something after death?
I am feeling Claustrophobia and feel like my life has no meaning and that it is only going to get worse.
I have tried going to doctors and trying anti-depressants, but they don't seem to work and I cannot talk about myself with others, especially with family around.
I also find my upset because I cannot travel to other universes/dimensions where things are better. This also includes animated words, such as cartoon words.
I also feel like my life sucks and is very different than that of normal people and I don't know what I can do. The idea about going to doctors and therapist, seems to be a bad idea. I don't think they can help.
I also feel like everything in the current world is trying to do me in.
WHAT CAN I DO????
This post was deleted for the following reason: I'm really sorry you are having a hard time, but this is not a place you can ask about suicide. If you need to talk to someone urgently, please look at this page of resources; please reach us at the contact form if you need to talk about this. -- cortex
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