Existential Angst, Party of 1
February 11, 2011 9:41 AM Subscribe
I made a turn in my life about 7 years ago and it was a wrong turn. Now I need some assistance backing out, turning around and figuring out a new path. (possible tl, dr)
posted by Sophie1 to work & money (24 answers total) 10 users marked this as a favorite
When I was in my early 20's (now 40) I was on the path to becoming a rabbi. Then I realized that I'm an atheist and I turned off that path and moved into science. I've been working in HIV research for 18 years now.
About 7 years ago I took a job in a great scientific environment but it unfortunately provides me no contact with the outside world and virtually no creativity. I have done the 7-3 work and then do my own creative thing after work for years. Now the 8 hours a day that I spend on the job are getting to the point where I am completely burnt out.
I am a very creative person. I do millinery in my free time and baking is my secret power. I am also a great teacher and love to teach. Part of me believes that I should have become a rabbi anyway and just become an academic but I fear it's too late for that now. Now I have a husband (whose salary has been cut back 4 times in the last 3 years) and a rather large mortgage to pay on a home that I love.
I need a way out but quitting is not an option until I have something that can pay the mortgage. I feel like the only skills I have qualifications for are the ones I'm doing right now and I don't want to do this anymore.
I thought about opening a bakery, but I've never even worked in one much less owned one. I thought about opening a craft studio but I have no money to do so and pay our bills. Going to seminary or a Ph.D. program would be a full time endeavor.
Help me find a path under all of these "buts".