Texas spaz looking for guidance.
April 13, 2010 7:31 AM Subscribe
How do I act less spastic?
posted by anonymous to health & fitness (11 answers total) 2 users marked this as a favorite
Oftentimes I am overcome with emotion. I can't organize my thoughts easily, or interpret what others want (or don't) from me. I have a thyroid issue and no support or the chance for it in my locality. In finding out about that last year I've found some inner peace, but not lasting or much. Initially I blamed everything about my behavior on this issue, since becoming medicated (solely to treat this thyroid issue) I've come to think that this is not the case and my actions are really my own.
I spend money like water and live paycheck to paycheck in the service industry, relying on the minimal support of others for living. My coworkers avoid me and I am constantly suspicious that they think I'm crazy. At previous places of employment this has caused me to act odd enough for me to decide that quitting was the answer so that nobody would know me at the next place and I could start over fresh.
My roommates find my behavior odd and avoid me as well. Even my hair stylist mentioned that my previous haircut looked crazy when I saw him last month. I suspect this was a slip and what was really crazy was our conversation.
I've tried being quiet but even that seems to creep people out, they expect at least something out of me. Without any feedback this is what I will resort to so that I can survive longer. It seems like my voice is uncapped when I'm engaged in conversation with anyone.
Finally, I've gone a year without ruining my latest job. However, now I'm starting to get weirded out at work again. I really need to find some way to make this go well so that I can afford some kind of lasting mental help. How do I get through this, and act professionally while doing so?
My one thought right now is to confide in my boss. He is a great guy and might understand, though this has gone poorly in the past. The last time I confided in someone about this issue I was driven from that job soon after.
A close relative has had the same issue for all of their life and has never overcome it, he is older and has been seen by medical professionals fairly consistently for some time. I would like to not be this crazy at that age.
I was raised catholic and have considered returning to the faith so I can find some kind of guidance and regularity in my life. Though it didn't seem to help much when I was younger, perhaps it might help more now?
I am a 30 year old college drop-out living in Houston.