I think we're breaking up and I don't know how to cope.
June 29, 2016 7:34 AM Subscribe
Possible break up of 2 year relationship.
I am not functioning. The physical pain is agony. I'm terrified I'll never love someone like this again, that someone won't love me the way he used to. Now he is callous and mean and I don't recognize him. But I know it was my fault, I had meltdowns and was controlling and ironically am losing him. This is a huge wake up call I keep begging for another chance, that I will not let my mental illness control me and I will get help but I guess too much damage has been done. All I think about are the good times, how he made me feel so loved and cared for and safe and now o feel like I have nothing. I don't know how I could possibly get over him. On the street everyone looks like nothing compared to him. I'm so sorry that I've basically ruined my life. That I let my insecurity ruin my life. What am I going to do? This pain is cutting me off from the world, from everything safe. I am so desperate I don't know what to do. I love him so much and I'm so sorry I've caused this. Why does this feel like it will never end? How do I know it will end? I'm sorry if this is all over the place, I'm sobbing here a mess so hopeless so desperate. I don't know what to do.
I am not functioning. The physical pain is agony. I'm terrified I'll never love someone like this again, that someone won't love me the way he used to. Now he is callous and mean and I don't recognize him. But I know it was my fault, I had meltdowns and was controlling and ironically am losing him. This is a huge wake up call I keep begging for another chance, that I will not let my mental illness control me and I will get help but I guess too much damage has been done. All I think about are the good times, how he made me feel so loved and cared for and safe and now o feel like I have nothing. I don't know how I could possibly get over him. On the street everyone looks like nothing compared to him. I'm so sorry that I've basically ruined my life. That I let my insecurity ruin my life. What am I going to do? This pain is cutting me off from the world, from everything safe. I am so desperate I don't know what to do. I love him so much and I'm so sorry I've caused this. Why does this feel like it will never end? How do I know it will end? I'm sorry if this is all over the place, I'm sobbing here a mess so hopeless so desperate. I don't know what to do.
This post was deleted for the following reason: Heya, I'm so sorry you're dealing with this right now, but there's not really an answerable Ask MetaFilter-type question in here as currently written. -- cortex
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posted by DeltaForce at 7:35 AM on June 29, 2016