For the past couple of months, I have been angry (or at least irritable) almost all the time. Though I know many factors can cause this, I am fairly certain that my own anger is linked to trauma / PTSD. I have had plenty of bloodwork done and thoroughly discussed my meds (lithium, Zoloft, clonazepam, trazodone) with my doctor and pharmacist, so those factors can be ruled out. I am seeking your help for ways to lessen the anger or get breaks from it.
posted by mermaidcafe to Health & Fitness (20 answers total) 19 users marked this as a favorite
I often feel angry even when there are no obvious triggers,but there are a few surefire triggers. Men are often quick to incur my wrath (I have had extensive sexual trauma, some recent, at the hands of men), but I also get extremely angry at anyone, including friends, who I think has a lot of unexamined privilege. I see myself struggling to afford food, and then I see these people in my life jetting off to Paris or spending lots of money on backpacks for kindergarteners, and I just lose it. I also have anger that is tied to PTSD triggers, such as people being loud, even if they are small children. The list of what makes me angry is far too long to include here, but you get the gist.
I don’t enjoy being this mad all the time, and I would love to find a way to stop it or at least have a break from it. I’ve thought of taking a vacation (it has been 4 years since I did) and see if that helps, but once again finances are a huge obstacle, I don’t know of anyone who’d help me fund a getaway, and, since I lack a car, I can’t even do something super short.
I am getting better at avoiding things that I know will upset me, but certain things are unavoidable (like when I have to ride the bus, which always makes me angry) and there are also always surprises.
Though I know that I will eventually move the energy through me and feel more like myself again, this time is super trying, especially when a brief errand almost invariably leaves me filled with rage.
Partial list of things I have tried, with mixed results: art, music, screaming/ranting, writing, punching soft things, klonopin, meditation, exercise.
Yes, I have thought of using the indignation I feel re: certain social causes as a springboard to start volunteering, but I want to be steadier in myself first.
I encourage suggestions, especially from those of you who’ve experienced something similar. I would also like to kindly request that you refrain from giving advice that centers around making others happy; while that has its time and place, right now I feel like everybody wants something from me, and it would only make me crankier to think of trying to please/appease others.