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	<title>How would I go about asking for a salary increase in my yearly review? </title>
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	<description>How would I go about asking for a salary increase in my yearly review?  I came in to this job as the #2 guy on a 2-person contract and then the #1 guy (my supervisor and project manager) quit.  I&apos;m now project manager and the only one on site.  I feel like I should receive some sort of corresponding raise with this increase in responsibility. I&apos;ve been working for a small employee-owned defense contractor since I graduated from college with an aerospace engineering degree in May of 2007.  I worked in a different area of the country with this same company until I decided that I wanted to move to DC.  I told my company I was going to look for a job in DC and they surprisingly ended up offering me a position in DC that I considered to be out of my league at the time.  This position made me the &quot;2nd string guy&quot; out of 2 guys working on-site at a very large, high-visibility Department of Defense program office.  I&apos;m honestly in a little over my head due to the scale of this program and the type of working I&apos;m doing but I feel like I&apos;m doing a great job given my age and experience.&lt;br&gt;
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The old #1 guy on this project (my supervisor and the project manager) was a retired Marine Corp officer who was old enough to be my dad.  He ended up leaving 6 months after I started working there, leaving me to be the only person on our contract in this program office.  I did not feel like I knew enough at the time to be project manager but I feel like I&apos;ve been doing a great job.  My company&apos;s CEO often tells me how great of a job I&apos;m doing given my age.  He&apos;s apparently pleasantly surprised.&lt;br&gt;
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I had to fight for a salary increase when I came to this job.  It sort of bothered me that my company thought I&apos;d be able to get by in this part of the country on the salary I had when I was living in the middle of nowhere.  I get the impression my company is very stingy about salary increases.&lt;br&gt;
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Now that I&apos;ve been automatically moved up to project manager on our contract here, I feel like there should be some sort of salary increase since my responsibilities have most definitely increased.  I have a yearly review coming up in early July and I want to attempt to ask for a raise.  I feel that I deserve one not only due to my performance, but also by my move up to the project manager slot. &lt;br&gt;
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Not only am I not totally sure how to approach this, but I wish I had some sort of salary data available to me for reference.  I really have no idea where I stand salary-wise.  I know there are websites that are used to compare salaries, but I don&apos;t feel like this job will be one easily found online.&lt;br&gt;
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Do any of you have any recommendations on how to approach this?  I&apos;d really appreciate it.  I&apos;ve found some sites about this subject that are listed below, but I&apos;d really like to hear some feedback directly tailored to my issue.  Thanks!&lt;br&gt;
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Pages I&apos;ve found so far:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href=&quot;http://lifehacker.com/395800/glassdoor-gives-insider-reports-of-salaries-and-work-conditions&quot;&gt;Lifehacker&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.lifehack.org/articles/money/how-to-ask-for-and-get-a-raise.html&quot;&gt;Lifehack&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href=&quot;http://lifehacker.com/5041815/know-what-salary-to-ask-for-in-your-new-job&quot;&gt;Lifehacker&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href=&quot;http://lifehacker.com/5242304/negotiate-your-salary-more-effectively&quot;&gt;Lifehacker&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.getrichslowly.org/blog/2008/10/01/you-make-how-much-getting-paid-what-youre-worth/&quot;&gt;Get Rich Slowly&lt;/a&gt;</description>
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	<title>Salary history on a job application: Where and how?</title>
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	<description>Salary history questions: the job listing requests resume, cover letter and salary history. What is the most elegant/least awkward way to list the history? Also, I&apos;ve been a freelance consultant for several years, what is the best way for the self-employed to list a salary? 1) Where does it go? I can&apos;t figure out where it goes on the resume so that it won&apos;t look awkward or strange. Under the job title? Listed as a range under the dates? Speaking of range, for non-consulting positions, do I list the end salary only or the range from beginning to end?&lt;br&gt;
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2) I&apos;ve been self-employed for several years. I&apos;m sure I earn more than this position pays (though I don&apos;t know exactly what the position pays), but that&apos;s ok with me. In the end it will be equal since I will no longer be paying self-employed taxes and my own personal insurance plan. If I put down my actual salary, I don&apos;t want the employer to pass me up, assuming their salary is too low. On the other hand, if I adjust my salary, I don&apos;t want to low-ball myself. What is the best way to approach this situation.&lt;br&gt;
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3) Bonus question: I&apos;ve worked for this employer before, about 10 years ago, in another city and state. The present position is at the HQ, and I&apos;m sure they have records of what I made, but I can&apos;t remember. I remember what I started at, but not what I was making several years later (there were significant bonuses and cost of living increases). I could  guess, but I&apos;d probably be wrong and that won&apos;t match up with their records. What is the best way to go about listing that salary?</description>
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	<title>Please suggest ways to improve my situation in life.</title>
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	<description>The short version of my question: I am underpaid and need to make what I&apos;m worth but I am also incredibly insecure and the thought of applying for another job sends me into panic and depression. Even when asked by, for example, the VP of the online division of a national newspaper I find myself unable to write a resume and offer it up (true story). Is it possible to convince my current employers to pay me what I&apos;m worth? I&apos;m posting anonymously and asking a fairly nebulous question, so I&apos;m going to provide far more background material than one might reasonably suppose is necessary to elicit a useful reply. Sorry. The gist of the question is simply: how do I overcome my psychological inhibitions and learning disabilities in order to capitalize on what I&apos;m told is an odd combination of very real strengths in order to succeed professionally and personally? I&apos;ll be slightly verbose so you can get a feel for my situation and personality. Besides, I honestly don&apos;t know what I&apos;m worth, only that it is more than I&apos;m paid.&lt;br&gt;
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I&apos;m 25, male, American, live in an east coast city with terrible public transportation and have a bachelors in English. That pretty much identifies me to those who know me without making me googleable. I hope. &lt;br&gt;
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I take home $785 &lt;em&gt;every other&lt;/em&gt; week. I pay $565 in rent every month, so when rent is due I generally have to choose between paying the other bills and eating. I also pay for psychotherapy out of pocket, though at a reduced rate that is just under $1/min rather than the more typical $2.50/min. I pay for antidepressants and ADD medication out of pocket, as well. Food costs what food costs, telephone and internet are fairly reasonable, and energy costs vary from month to month. I quit smoking months ago and stopped drinking the evening I realized I&apos;d had half a pint of the cheapest 100 proof whisky available every night for the past fortnight. I have zero friends and zero acquaintances. Until this year I have always managed to be in a relationship and in love.  Since finishing college though, I haven&apos;t had any way to meet anyone, at least no one who meets my standards for beauty, intelligence, and humor. Hence the whisky.  Basically, I make just enough to live, if you can call it living.&lt;br&gt;
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I have about $80K in combined debt because I didn&apos;t work much while I attended college and mostly relied on loans. For an intelligent person I do some very stupid things. If you&apos;re keeping up you&apos;ll realize that I can&apos;t possibly repay these, and indeed they are all in forbearance.&lt;br&gt;
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I excelled in literary theory and criticism, creative writing, critical writing, analytic philosophy, continental philosophy, and history. I&apos;m extremely good at both propositional and predicate logic; however, I am very poor at math, especially geometry, which does not make any sense whatsoever and confused more than one professor. All I can say is brains are strange things. Mine falls down in two areas: practical mathematics and language acquisition.  Unfortunately, this isn&apos;t mere laziness, I actually have the test results to prove it. &lt;br&gt;
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Go figure.&lt;br&gt;
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And I&apos;m something of an emotional cripple and something of a petulant child, though I try very hard to reign in these traits.&lt;br&gt;
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I tend to be arrogant and insecure. I am extremely critical of myself and others and can&apos;t shake the conviction that others are not only critical of me but judgmental. I generally refrain from passing judgement on others until they prove themselves to be average. Or worse, stupid. Or worse yet, stupid and fat. Or worst of all: stupid, fat, and happy. I&apos;m somewhat belligerent towards stupid fat people and wary of happiness.&lt;br&gt;
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I work for a graphic design company founded before I was born and still owned and operated by the original partners. Aside from those two there is myself and one other, a designer. I am not a designer but I have the aesthetic sensibility and appreciation that print designers seem to think both vital to existence and mostly absent from the general population.&lt;br&gt;
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I am an expert in Photoshop (since 2.5 I think, I remember getting excited when layers were added) and InDesign (since it came out, before that I had some experience with Quark, enough to know I hated it) and adept at Illustrator (not expert, I can&apos;t achieve photo realism, but very competent for the more common applications). Before I began working for these people they contracted out the really difficult pieces of production work &#8212; image retouching, color correction, compositing, that sort of thing &#8212; now I do it, although I had to demonstrate my abilities on a near daily basis for half a year before they would let me take over those tasks. And I only recently convinced them to purchase a Wacom tablet, which on average halves the amount of time it takes me to the really fiddly bits. They wouldn&apos;t believe me when I told them I needed a tablet. Now that we have one they won&apos;t even take the approximately one hour of time to get used to it and begin to take advantage of it.&lt;br&gt;
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This is one thing that drives me nuts. They&apos;ve existed in a competitive and difficult field for almost thirty years. As far as I can tell, they&apos;ve survived by never charging enough, sucking up to clients, working sixty to eighty hour weeks, and never, ever taking a single risk. If you win all your bids you&apos;re bidding too low. Right? Right?! They found a formula and they will not change it. And they don&apos;t respect the new, which from their perspective includes me, since in their eyes I&apos;m still an infant. Whenever I suggest some alternative, or wonder aloud why they consistently under bill, provide free services, and don&apos;t charge for absurd requests, they get arch and remind me that they&apos;ve been in business for a long time. To which all I can do is shrug, since I can&apos;t exactly say &quot;big fucking deal, I&apos;ve been alive for 25 years, that doesn&apos;t make me an expert in living. Just because you&apos;ve found a way to survive doesn&apos;t mean you&apos;ve found the best way.&quot; They won&apos;t leave the cave to see the sun.&lt;br&gt;
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I started as an intern, it was supposed to last three weeks. Six months later I was finally offered a job. Here&apos;s how that happened.&lt;br&gt;
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They&apos;d designed a website for a school and contracted an independent web designer (a teacher at the well respected art school in this city) to do the technical stuff. They&apos;d worked with him before so I had a chance to examine the product. He was clearly a hack, his websites were built entirely in Dreamweaver and in the least efficient, least semantic, least accessible, least standards compliant fashion possible. There were no headings in the markup, no lists, nothing but paragraphs and font tags inside of tables inside of tables tucked within tables. The doctype said xhtml 1 transitional, the markup said html 3.2, the W3C validator said you&apos;ve got to be kidding. I actually needed to make a backup of a site he&apos;d built for the company before I got there and the fastest way, I thought, was wget. Wget couldn&apos;t make a complete mirror because all the crucial navigation was done with flash. I could grab everything in a specified directory, but that was it. I ended up going directory by directory. The site still isn&apos;t well indexed in any search engine, although the first part does show up in Google.&lt;br&gt;
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I&apos;ve been building websites for fun since 1998. In 2001 I learned CSS and became a standards nut. At this point I can and do write valid, semantic markup and exploit CSS to the limit, and fairly consistently get the results I intend across all major platforms on the first go.&lt;br&gt;
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Trying to convince the people I work for that semantic markup, separation of form and content, and standards compliance are not only a good idea but efficient was and is impossible. They need Dreamweaver because they&apos;re visual, and Dreamweaver often has trouble rendering my css properly, it seems to choke on complex positioning. CSS that validates and renders properly in all major browsers and, when necessary, in IE5.5 manages to trip Dreamweaver up and the bossess blame the CSS because they can&apos;t understand how an expensive piece of software can be such crap. They don&apos;t like the idea that CSS degrades gracefully. From their perspective it is better that information be totally inaccessible than presented plainly.&lt;br&gt;
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Fortunately, the guy they&apos;d hired couldn&apos;t figure out how to create a fairly simple drop down menu with a translucent background that worked on all platforms and so was lobbying to build the site in Flash. I went home and cranked out a demonstration in about an hour. I brought it in the next day and said &quot;is this what you had in mind?&quot; Because I can be a smug little prick sometimes. And it degraded gracefully. After that I continued to build a functional example of the two most technically challenging parts of the site on my own because I had a strong feeling the guy was going to let us all down. After many failures on his part the eleventh hour rolled around and there was no site. They turned to me. Why not, things couldn&apos;t get worse. I gave them a site in five days, complete with pixel perfect alignment (usually a pain, in this case any sane developer would&apos;ve said it can&apos;t be done and suggested a simpler design) across browsers and platforms. There are some ugly css hacks (but nothing that can break in future versions of IE) and a couple unobtrusive bits of Javascript, but it works. Before the client started making their own changes it was 100% valid xhtml 1.0 strict, valid css, and accessible.&lt;br&gt;
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That was when they offered me a job. When they saw (yet again) that I wasn&apos;t just a kid who talked a lot but a competent and knowledgeable person who delivers even when promising the impossible. Nonetheless, the starting pay was shit. I used to make more at Starbucks. The benefits at Starbucks were better, too. As were the chances for advancement. Unless someone dies, I&apos;m as high up the ladder as I can get at this place.&lt;br&gt;
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Since then I&apos;ve done a few smaller web projects and managed to educate them somewhat on how the interwebs work. I can&apos;t break them entirely of the Flash habit, and so I&apos;ve had to work in Flash, too. I loathe Flash. I try to feed them tidbits of info they need to know but am usually ignored. The other boss seems to think that all that matters is spending a lot of time being very, very busy every day. The idea of efficiency frightens him, and when I have time to read an article during the work day he thinks I&apos;m slacking. He also has this infuriating habit of passing off all his boring work onto me and an equally infuriating habit of looking over my shoulder and asking me what I&apos;m working on now. It&apos;s amazing I haven&apos;t stabbed him with an x-acto knife.&lt;br&gt;
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I&apos;m involved in every project. Most of the work I do is creative in the sense that I make creative use of the tools on hand to achieve what is needed rather than I create a design. I&apos;m more craftsman than artist &#8212; aside from a few small print pieces and one website, I don&apos;t do any design. Instead I answer questions (I know more about all the software used in that place than they do and am the only one there who understands how computers work. I&apos;ve been using Photoshop as long as they have yet they only know how to use a fraction of its features. They don&apos;t know what alpha channels are, for example. Quickmask scares them. They look at the camera raw interface and get confused. They use macs, you see, a computer that assumes its users are mentally challenged magpies attracted to the shiny interface but unable to do more than peck at the brightly colored buttons. They don&apos;t know what the terminal is or why they should need it), teach (you&apos;d think InDesign was complicated, I thought designers were supposed to understand typography yet they don&apos;t bother to learn about opentype or any of the &apos;optical&apos; features in InDesign and I&apos;m pretty sure they never really understood multiple master fonts, either. You&apos;d think nested style sheets would appeal to people working in print, wouldn&apos;t you? But they rarely use any style sheets at all, before going to press I have to make certain the formatting is consistent throughout a document), research images and fonts (I&apos;m something of a font nut) and so on. I basically do three or four different jobs each day. I&apos;ve occasionally needed to create 3D visualizations since no one else can be bothered to learn Blender or Sketch Up (and there&apos;s no way they&apos;d shell out for Maya). I&apos;ve made a few movies and done the occasional bit of non-linear video editing. Which I&apos;m not very good at. I&apos;m the only one who knows what &apos;codec&apos; stands for let alone how to use one. I&apos;m the only one who knows how to create web-based presentations for clients in other countries.&lt;br&gt;
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I am unhappy because I don&apos;t feel respected or appreciated. I am angry because I need more money than I make and I&apos;m pretty sure I deserve it. I&apos;m accused of making senseless arguments because they can&apos;t follow a chain of reasoning backwards as well as forwards and so get lost. I feel as though I&apos;m tolerated the way a particularly clever monkey might be tolerated. As a novelty. I have greater and broader knowledge than the three people I work with and am looked down on for it. I spend hours daily keeping up with trends in half a dozen fields and am considered slightly strange for it. I spend a lot of time thinking. Apparently an alien concept. I value knowledge for its own sake. I like intellectual challenges. I love a good argument. I love a good discussion. They won&apos;t even step into the hermenutic circle for a chat.&lt;br&gt;
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I want to stay where I am because it is relatively informal, I can walk to work, and I&apos;m used to it. And because applying for jobs terrifies me. I only got the internship that led to this job by impressing a Professor who, because she thought I was interesting and smart arranged it with the company. I needed three weeks for college credit. After that the bosses owed nothing to me or to my professor. They didn&apos;t want to terminate the internship and I am now an employee. Luck got me in the door, ability kept me there. But I didn&apos;t do the scary part and apply for the position. Bearing in mind that I really do admire the talent and dedication of the people I work with, not to mention their knowledge, here is some of the crap I have to put up with. &lt;br&gt;
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They don&apos;t share my frames of reference and so my ideas often strike them as stupid. My humor is wasted on them. The day Kurt Vonnegut Jr. died I was saddened, they said &quot;who?&quot; They&apos;d never heard of Emperor Norton; don&apos;t understand Descartes; won&apos;t discuss Aristotle; don&apos;t care about web standards; don&apos;t trust open source and make no effort to understand either the philosophical or the practical implications of it; care only about how things look; one of them believes in god; they don&apos;t know what the X-Prize is or who won it; don&apos;t read fiction, especially don&apos;t read science fiction; don&apos;t have ideas; and don&apos;t do anything, really, except churn out incredibly high quality design. &lt;br&gt;
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I say Jeremy Brett was the best Sherlock Holmes and they grunt. I say &lt;em&gt;A Bit of Fry and Laurie&lt;/em&gt; was the best sketch comedy show to come out of England since &lt;em&gt;Monty Python&apos;s Flying Circus&lt;/em&gt; and they shrug. They (the bosses and my co-worker) don&apos;t know Bertrand Russell from Bertram Wooster. They&apos;ve never read &lt;em&gt;The Wasteland&lt;/em&gt;. They can&apos;t make a distinction between postmodernism and postcolonialism. They don&apos;t know what opera the Queen of the Night is from or who composed it; when I was listening to a recording of Edita Gruberova in the role I was asked to turn the volume down. But they think nothing of it when my coworker plays &lt;em&gt;The Shins&lt;/em&gt; or one of the bosses puts on &lt;em&gt;Herman&apos;s Hermits&lt;/em&gt;. They&apos;ve never heard of Lucretius. If I say &quot;somatic cell nuclear transfer&quot; they do not say anything, not even &quot;baaa.&quot; They don&apos;t know who Knuth is. They&apos;ve never read &quot;Three Men in a Boat.&quot; They can&apos;t explain special relativity. They use lorem ipsum and don&apos;t know where it comes from or what it means. Once the male boss, who runs, suggested I take up running. I half muttered &quot;There is no one who desires pain for its own sake. Who would chose to do hard exercise, except to reap some reward from it?&quot; (paraphrasing Cicero) I got a blank stare. It wasn&apos;t a perfect translation, but it should&apos;ve been obvious what I was driving at. They don&apos;t know what TCP stands for. They haven&apos;t read Mark Twain since high school. They refuse to understand why the idea of an intellectual commons matters and matters more now than ever before, and won&apos;t think about it. They don&apos;t know the basics of any subject but their own: no grounding in psychology, cognitive studies, biology, genetics, zoology, philosophy, nothing. One of them likes history but not the way you or I would think of history, as an area of study, he doesn&apos;t seem to think about it so much as to memorize trivia. The other has read &lt;em&gt;The Picture of Dorian Gray&lt;/em&gt; but never thought about it. When I quoted from it one day she was pleased to recognize my source and I, in turn, was pleased to discuss it. Only I couldn&apos;t because she&apos;d forgotten what it was all about. I made a joke about necessary and sufficient conditions, I forget the context now, but I remember having to explain it and I remember they never quite understood. They don&apos;t know art history, not even in broad. Fuavism, formalism, futurism begin with an &quot;f&quot; and end with an &quot;ism,&quot; but that&apos;s about it. They&apos;ve heard of the book &quot;Things Fall Apart&quot; but they can&apos;t name the author nor recognize the allusion in the title. They&apos;ve never heard of the steady-state theory or the standard-model, although they can say &quot;big bang.&quot; The COBE satellite gathered data that took cosmology from a speculative pursuit and transformed it into a hard science. Anyone who can hear that without a sense of optimism and wonder lacks a soul. They lack souls. One of them mistook a line of Herrick for a line of Shakespeare. They&apos;ve never seen Doctor Who, can&apos;t name a single actor who played the Doctor, and look at me funny when I say &quot;exterminate&quot; like a Dalek. They are machines optimized for design and convinced of the absolute rightness of being a machine optimized for design.&lt;br&gt;
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I&apos;m paid shit to do work that is essential to their daily business and they don&apos;t seem to think this is a problem. I wouldn&apos;t mind if they weren&apos;t so slow, boring, and dismissive. I was promised insurance in January and only now have it, by the time the insurance company starts to cover the pre-existing condition of depression I&apos;ll have been paying for treatment out of pocket for over two years.&lt;br&gt;
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I write, I manage the network, the ftp and http servers, I do all the technical stuff, I do basic video work, I do Flash (I hate Flash). I have worked hard for years to know what I know and to get good at it.&lt;br&gt;
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But I&apos;ve acquired all these skills on the side. So I&apos;m afraid to approach another employer because I can&apos;t demonstrate, not fully, what I can do. I feel there must be people just as qualified and with proof in the form of grades and a diploma and a portfolio. these days I&apos;m starting to have a portfolio, but my expertize was acquired out of a passion for the creative potential I percived in the tools. I can point to an annual report and say &quot;the left half of that image was created entirely in Photoshop, by me&quot; but that really doesn&apos;t get to the heart of what I can do. I&apos;d love to get away from print entirely (although initially it attracted me) and focus on new media and network mediated communication, but thanks to that pesky language+math learning problem I&apos;m the worst programmer alive so I can&apos;t sell myself as a developer. Especially since I seem like someone who should be excellent at it, I get all the theory, all the abstraction, for example I find Javascript fascinating because prototypical inheritance is neat and I&apos;ve always like lambdas. I once spent several months failing to learn Haskell.&lt;br&gt;
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I&apos;d like to freelance but I don&apos;t know how to find clients and don&apos;t have any savings and besides I&apos;m convinced of my own worthlessness. On one level I know I&apos;m superior in many ways, I&apos;ve been told so for years, I can see it when I compare myself directly to others, but I can&apos;t really feel it. I feel boring and average and dull. Sure, I&apos;m smarter, quicker, and funnier than the people I work for, but they&apos;re old and inflexible. My coworker is nice enough but a little slow, but she&apos;s from the South, believes in god, and anyway didn&apos;t have some of the privileges I had growing up, so it isn&apos;t really her fault.&lt;br&gt;
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I always see the big picture and take the too-long view. Nothing really worries me because I know that eventually the universe will end and long before that, I will. But lots of things piss me off, and all of them are caused by people.&lt;br&gt;
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In many ways I&apos;m a geek. As a child I took apart my toys to see how they worked and to this day void the warranty within a week of purchasing something. I build my own computers. I&apos;m comfortable with and run several flavors of Linux as well as freeDOS. I hate OSX but I know it quite well. My dependence on the internet for news is quite geeky, too. I read about thirty different sites including general sites like mefi or boingboing and topical sites like a list apart. I&apos;m completely current with what passes for culture online and completely oblivious to most of what passes for popular culture offline.&lt;br&gt;
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In many ways I&apos;m a creative. I&apos;m moody, depressed, sporadically productive. I dress in black. Although in truth that last is only because I hate shopping (I haven&apos;t bought new jeans in ten years, I only own one pair of footwear at a time, the newest T-shirt in my collection is six years old, I buy underwear and socks but that&apos;s about it) and black wears well. I&apos;m a rebel without cause or clue.&lt;br&gt;
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In many ways I&apos;m an academic. I synthesize ideas from many disciplines in newish ways, I learn incredibly quickly, and I have a lot of fun doing it. I see the humor in tragedy. I enjoy research, enjoy theory, and enjoy writing down my ideas for others to examine.&lt;br&gt;
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In many ways I&apos;m a failure. I have an undergraduate degree and excellent recommendations from English and Philosophy professors but terrible grades. I might be able to get into grad school but it wouldn&apos;t be a Harvard. I went to school to learn and never paid attention to grades, deadlines, or requirements. I hate competition and direct confrontation, I prefer to destroy opposition before it has a chance to realize it is opposition. I prefer other people to do things for me than to do them for myself. I can&apos;t bring myself to respect authority or even pretend to do so, I can&apos;t submit to people who are only my superiors in age and wealth. I&apos;m not a morning person to the extent that I&apos;ve been fired for being incapable of getting to work on time. In other words, I&apos;m neither temperamentally nor physiologically suited for the professional world.&lt;br&gt;
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I don&apos;t know what to do. I want to make enough money to pay back my loans, eat out occasionally, and put something aside. I don&apos;t know how to drive and wouldn&apos;t be able to afford to keep a car anyway so I can&apos;t go far. I don&apos;t have the money to move. I&apos;m stuck. The people I work for are kind employers but cheap and inconsiderate and dull. They don&apos;t reward merit but then who does? I can walk to work, which is great because I don&apos;t know how to drive. I can&apos;t bring myself to write a resume because putting down what I can do seems stupid. This whole post makes me think I&apos;m wrong to want more money. Only by directly comparing myself to another am I able to convince myself I&apos;m not a stupid fat person. I will, of course, force myself to write a resume, but I&apos;d rather stay where I am. Its convinient and its familiar. How can I convince my employers to pay me what I&apos;m worth when they don&apos;t take me seriously and refuse to acknowledge that they need me? I mean, I&apos;m not indispensable, but if I quit now it would be expensive and difficult for them and chances are they&apos;d never find another person who can fill all the roles I fill.&lt;br&gt;
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I feel like I&apos;m on train that left from the birth canal and won&apos;t stop until the incineration chamber. It&apos;s been chugging along with ever growing speed and the world outside is a blur; I&apos;m moving through time and I&apos;m sitting still. I can&apos;t stop the passage of time, but there must be some way to get off the train and complete the journey in a more active and rewarding manner. I just wish someone would tell me how.&lt;br&gt;
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Thank you for your patience and for taking the time to try to help.</description>
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