I'm bipolar and I started taking Lamictal and Seroquel around a year ago. I'm in my second year at art school after taking a year out due to depression. I'm finding it very hard to be creative this year. I used to instantly think of a million ideas as soon as I was given a brief, now it takes me days to come up with one. I'm also finding it very difficult to draw which used to be one of my strengths. My first semester assessment is in few weeks and I'm kind-of ashamed of what I'm handing in. I've heard bipolar meds can effect peoples's creativity, has anyone else experienced this? Is there anything I can do about it short of coming off the meds (which I definitely don't want to do)?
A year ago I went through a serious manic episode, during which I signed a 24 month O2 phone contract which I can't afford. Is there any chance O2 would cancel the contract if I explain the situation and provide medical evidence?
I've seen The Devil and Daniel Johnston and Stephen Fry's Secret Life of the Manic Depressive and I've read The Unquiet Mind by Kay Redfield Jamison. What are some other great books and films about manic depression?
I was diagnosed with bipolar a few months ago and I've been taking limotrigine ever since. Since then I've noticed that, for the past 5 years or so, even when I wasn't depressed or manic, the way I was thinking was pretty irrational. Among other things I made important decisions like which university to go to and what to study for reasons that don't make any sense to me now, and I had very unrealistic ambitions which I was convinced I would achieve even though I didn't do anything to work towards them. Does bipolar effect the way you think, even when you're not experiencing a manic or depressive episode? And if so would mood stabilizers fight that part of the illness?
I've had serious depression for bassically my entire adolescence which has steadily been getting worse. After a particularly bad episode last year I went on a high dose of venlafaxine which triggered, what I'm now realising was hypomania. It was actually a pretty great experience - it bassically just made me really high functioning. I didn't do anything irrational or dangerous and I made tons of friends and did lots of creative work. That's worn off and now I'm depressed again. Does this mean I'm bipolar? I've had depression for a long time but I've never had anything close to a manic episode that wasn't triggered by drugs. If I am bipolar, are future hypomanic episodes likely to be as pleasant or could it turn into full blown mania? My uncle's bipolar I so I know what that's like.